Wicked Tidbits

radiosilence95's picture

I came out to my sister last night. We went swimming at ten o'clock at night, since a nighttime dip is much more fun. We just started talking and subjects came into the conversation that were perfect doorways to coming out. So I did. She was pretty surprised ("Whoa! You're a lesbo?!") but not at all bothered. I was concerned; a twelve-year-old mind is very spongy, absorbing everything around it. A lot of kids at her school are homophobic, including many of her close friends, and I was worried that it had rubbed off on her. I revealed to her that I had been questioning my sexuality for quite some time, and came to terms with it about a year ago. The conversation went smoothly, she was very receptive, and I think that made us a lot closer.

I went to an eye doctor recently. Turns out I'm gonna start wearing glasses. I'm slightly nearsighted, just barely enough to require glasses. The pair I picked out looks damn good on me, so I'm not at all concerned with looking like a dork. My only complaint is that I'm still wearing braces. That coupled with glasses may be a bit...unflattering. Oh well. I'm not in desperate need of them, I can wear them pretty much whenever I think I need them, so I can wait until my braces get taken off.

My poetry has come to a screeching halt. Probably because I have nothing to write about anymore. For the past six months Brittany has been my main source of inspiration. Even though not all of my poems within that time frame were about her, I was sharing them with her and that alone gave me the willpower to whip up a good free verse every week or so. I have some ideas in mind that could probably go into two poems, but that's about it for now. Hopefully my creative juices will be flowing soon enough. I just need to adapt to the new routine of summer.

Remember that little fender bender I got into three weeks ago? Well, the issue still hasn't been resolved. The other girl's insurance company STILL refuses to pay for the damage, EVEN THOUGH IT WAS CLEARLY HER FAULT. My mom has to call her attorney, we may have to drag this to court, it's gonna take a fucking century to get my goddamn car fixed. I just want the damn thing fixed. I thought this was simple. If you're at fault, your insurance pays for the damage. I thought that was how it worked. Apparently not. I'm being screwed over right now and it pisses me off. The front of my car is an eyesore and I'm tired of looking at it.

It's just irritating that they're trying to completely screw over a seventeen-year-old girl who just got in her very first accident. Those fuckers. Other insurance companies around this town would do the right thing and pay up. It just figures that *I* have to deal with the ONE company that's full of assholes. So we shall see how this pans out.

Tomorrow is Monday! Which means dinner with Brittany and my bros! If Brittany can't make it tomorrow night either...wait. It's okay. I have a Plan B. I'll just invite her to that nice little creek or something during the week. So it's all good. No worries. See, I'm not too incredibly stressed about when I get to see her, because I'm armed with her phone number and self-confidence!

I also plan on going to her graduation the first of June. I wanna see her walk across the stage and get her diploma and see her smile and junk. I have other senior friends that I'm going to graduation for, but mostly her.


Tycoondashkid's picture

your sister is awesome

there is only one 12 year old i know thats 100% accepting is Jenna, although given Scotland's Track Record i'll bet everything they will be Accepting by their mid-teens

my poetry is halted too, ive lost all my inspirations too

radiosilence95's picture


She's even more awesome than I gave her credit for. I was really surprised she wasn't bothered by it.

I think I need to experiment with different styles and different topics. Maybe that will help me write more.

Tycoondashkid's picture


did you think she was gonna freak out? has your sister even seemed Homophobic?

thats what i was thinking, ive got the style i just can't put pen to paper, dam writers block

radiosilence95's picture

Not freak out necessarily,

Not freak out necessarily, just be quite uncomfortable with the idea. I really never got a good idea of her attitude towards gay people; sometimes she would seem completely okay with it, other times not so much. Several family friends are quite homophobic so that worried me a bit.

The best time to brainstorm is when you're tired. Not when you're falling over tired, mind you. Your mind just kind of wanders and you tend to come up with more ideas. Everybody thinks that you should be wide-awake and totally focused whenever you want to brainstorm, but that's not exactly true. So try brainstorming ideas when you're tired and see if it works.

Tycoondashkid's picture

oh that makes sense, maybe

oh that makes sense, maybe its a sort of shes okay with them as long as they don't do anything infront of her thing

thanks for the tip, ill try it :D

jeff's picture

Congrats on coming out...

But there was nothing in this post very wicked, so I'll fix it for you...

"You can judge the whole world on the sparkle that you think it lacks" - Dawes, When My Time Comes (http://youtu.be/Z0FrcTX6hWI)

radiosilence95's picture

I've never seen Wicked. I've

I've never seen Wicked. I've heard it's amazing, but I'm not a huge fan of musicals. They tend to annoy me :P

jeff's picture


I'm a huge fan of musicals, but Wicked is not one of my faves.

"You can judge the whole world on the sparkle that you think it lacks" - Dawes, When My Time Comes (http://youtu.be/Z0FrcTX6hWI)

MaddieJoy's picture

I went

to see Wicked recently. We had to go all the way to another state, but then we found out we had accidentally gotten front-row seats so it was totally worth it! I love the songs SOOO much.

"It's a helluva start, knowing what makes you happy."
--Lucille Ball

MacAvity's picture


Congratulations on coming out to your sister - and that's great that she reacted well!

Glasses are cute. Might be right about looking a little dorky in combination with braces, but once those are gone, yeah.

Yay for being armed with phone number and self-confidence!

Aaand... I've seen Wicked. It was a very impressive production, but I still didn't find it particularly memorable. Not sure what all the hype is about, really.