Basically, not much has been happening. That's just the fucking problem, I'm boring. Most of what I do all day is go to school and sleep, drink coffee, read The Economist, and/or sometimes play Super Smash Bros on my friend's phone, it's awesome.
And then scramble to fit in homework at the last second, before tests and shit.
After school, sometimes I have my friend Mexico with me, sometimes not, if he's with me, we usually go to either Subway or the library or something, and play chess and talk about weird shit. If he's not with me, I go to Starbucks by myself and drink shit tons of coffee and read The Economist in those sexy soft chairs that are so fucking comfy...
Then I go to the library, hoping to find someone I know to poach off to play chess.
Then I go home, and do mindless shit, and play Civilization till late at night, then repeat.
A few days ago, they changed the bells to be like some weird doorbell noise rather than the usual bong, and that probably was the most exciting thing to happen to me all week.
And yet I'm still largely optimistic, despite the fucking skull-crushing slogging in this boring cunt face of a world.
This is kinda the problem with capitalism, have you ever seen Wall-e?
Frankly, I could see that happening to humanity, just flying around on these chairs, with all our needs and possible wants taken care of instantly, just talking to people and doing other shit all day.
Capitalism and the free enterprise system is sort of dehumanizing by nature. There are a lot of technologies and companies like Facebook or insurance companies or advertising companies, where their main goal is to take people, and reduce them to a series of data points, that they can then ram advertising so far up our asses, we buy their shit without even realizing it.
The whole system is based off the want for more, greed. The goal of companies is to take humanity and reduce it to a series of needs and wants to be serviced, nothing more, and then using that to extract everything they can from humanity.
You know, that's why advertising has gotten so weird in the past couple years. The vast majority of commercials have absolutely nothing to say about their product at all. I saw a deodorant commercial that was just a black and white montage of attractive shirtless people playing sports with this weird song Hot Bod, I want your Bod playing in the background, then a brief flash of the actual product.
It's things like that that make me feel violated, I really don't want to be exploited like this, made to make these weird associations and fucking memory triggers associated with products.
And yet, I'm still optimistic, because I know I don't have to participate in capitalism if I don't want to, that's one of the nice parts about it. I can continue to try to live as a real human being, not a set of data points to be buttfucked with ads and products designed to suit the every whim I didn't know I had.
The worst part about it, is that it's fucking dull. That's the problem with my life now, is that I have no needs or wants or anything, it's all serviced. I do my shit, and then I have nothing else to do.
I mean, smacking the shit out of my face last week, it kinda sucked then, but frankly I'm glad I did it now, it was at least interesting, if a little painful.
And I know that interest is out there, somewhere, maybe there's even some of it hidden in this fucking insipid frivolous pop culture of cunt faced fucking douchebag asswipe bastard fucks.
And I'm going to go find it.