I hate to whinge and complain, but I am so stupid. I fell for the wrong guy, I let myself be with the wrong guy, and am still letting myself be with the wrong guy.
Hes lied to me once.
He takes drugs.
He sells drugs.
Hes not going far in life.
He doesnt have a job.
Constantly tells me I dont influence him in anyway shape or form to give up drugs or anything else for that matter.
He's sexually immoral. Yesterday he told me, he had a dream he was about to fuck his mates sister but as she bent over he woke up shattered.
Why am I still in love with this person?
But lets look at his positives...
Despite all the bad he is, he is the most loving gentle man I ever come to be. I cant help but love him. He's beautifull. He got me a bunch of roses the other day for no reason at all. He knows im upset without me saying a single world. He cuddles me when im upset, he gets me water when i feel sick.
He's amazing. Yet so not.
If i cant accept his more deamining qualities doesnt that mean I just dont deserve him?