I kknow I always say this after being gone for a lengthy period of time, but I want to say it anyway....I'm sorry.
I want to get back to writing, legit, on here every day if possible. Why's that always fall through the cracks? :(
I hope to get back to writing things not so dismal.
But first, I need to get something off my chest.
WARNING: mental health, depression, bpd, etc....
I'm so depressed. As always, I know.
But I want to just sleep. And I don't feel like eating because I'm not hungry and I have no energy.
And after a text I got today, I've learned one thing: FOREVER IS A BIG FUCKING LIE. Thank you for ruining my day, to the person who texted all tht shit to me and then said she doesnt want to upset me....ohrighttt because when you basically say you wasted your time with someone that's such a nice compliment. yeah fuckiing right.
i want to hate your guts. im so mad at you.
why the fuck cant i get anything right?
i dont want to think youre attractive.
and fuck. i just want to block you out of my life. you've broken any pride i had in our friendship. its not that you let me down by not talking to me. this was a direct hit at me and i dont know how you oculd make it worse. it feels like someone twisting a knife in my stomach.