Father's day was yesterday, as you all know, and I guess mine was pleasant to say the least. My aunt and uncle came over to join us for a barbecue, which was nice as I hadn't seen them for quite some time. I got to drink quite a bit, so that was definitely made the day ;)
My dad is really such a great man, and I couldn't ask for a better father. He has accepted me in every way and has never given up on me. I've put him through quite a lot growing up, I was never an easy child; I always had some problem going on that he usually somehow got dragged into. Yet he still loved me, supported me, and never had any shame over who I am. But our relationship has really only developed over the past 4 years, growing up I didn't really know my father. I really thought of him as someone who just went to work and yelled at me when I was in trouble, pretty shallow right? That was my general impression of my dad well until I was about 11 or 12; growing up he was a very aggressive, angry person who was overly concerned with money and my siblings and I being perfect. But he's changed so much over the years and he really is one of the nicest, most genuine persons I will probably ever know.
*I also would like to include a memorial for my phone which just fucking DIED*
So lately (completely off topic) I've been at a real crossroads with some people who I am friends with. They haven't really been the most amicable of people and I'm starting to wonder if I should just move on. It would suck as I've already lost an insurmountable amount of friends this past year, one including my best friend whom was like a sister to me, and it would suck to lose even more. But I'd rather have no friends than fake friends. What is really hard to deal with is how I went from being unpopular in 8th grade, to super popular in 9th grade, and back to unpopular in 10th grade. I guess because I partied a lot people perceived
me as some big party person (which is true in itself, I like to have a good time) but not someone who can be very serious, and very introspective. That's one thing very few people know about me, I am extremely intelligent. I may present myself differently, but I am no where near stupid, or dull, or anything of low intellect. I just don't want people to think of me as some big brainchild nerd like they did when I was younger. No one wants to hang out with geeks. But back to the point, I want to move forward and try to make new friends, but I kind of fear being completely alone. I spent a good 14 years of my almost 17 year long life that way and I never, ever want to go back.
I think I'll close this journal now. P.M. me if anyone would like, I'd love to chit-chat with you guys.
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