I'm beginning to fail to understand heterosexuality. Really. It used to be that I could appreciate the cuteness and sticky sweetness of straight relationships, but that no longer seems to be the case. Something just doesn't register when I see a girl and a guy together. I know a lot of straight people feel the same way about gay people, but at least some of them can look at a gay couple and say, "Aw, that's cute."
It's really weird and I can't quite explain it. It's like...when I see weddings or something like that, I'm just like meh, unless it's two gay people. Why would any woman be with a man when she could be with a woman? Women are just so much better in every possible way. I know the answer to that question is obvious by the way, I'm just saying that even though I know the answer it doesn't really...compute with my brain. Sometimes heterosexuality is even annoying to me.
So, along that same line of thought, I think gay people should start insulting each other by saying, "You're so straight," in the same way that straight people say "You're so gay." Yeah. I'm gonna start doing that. "You stupid hetero!" as opposed to "You stupid homo!" So if anyone on this site happens to annoy me, I will hurl heterophobic (not sure that's even a real term) insults at you.
I feel that I would the "man" in a relationship. It always kinda annoyed me when people insist on assigning sex roles in a same-sex relationship, but I can understand why they would. I think I'm pretty much androgynous, not in appearance, but personality-wise. The social perceptions of how both men and women act apply to me. I dunno. I just think I'd be the protective one, the one who's waiting impatiently for my girlfriend to finish getting ready for a date, the one who holds open the door, that sort of thing. I would love that. Which is why I could never date butch-y girl. I could only really date a feminine lady. Also butch-y girls aren't attractive to me. I'm a lesbian because I like women, not because I like women who look like men.
I went antiquing today with my dad. I found this really cool issue of Life magazine from 1956 that has articles about segregation and other 50's stuff. I also grabbed a 1937 edition of Reader's Digest, a couple of Wonder Woman and Wolverine comics, and tarot cards for my sister. She wants to learn how to read 'em. When it comes to antiques, everything is cool to me, but I pay attention mostly to reading material, be it books, magazines, comics, etc.