Gay should equal Happy right ?

NickBoy's picture

I just look at straight people with children and livin a happy life and despise them because they were not born gay . Its not my FUCKING fault , and i have people judging me with their disguting looks and the things they say . no one wants to be around Nick , and i can just look at my mothers face and tell she wishes she had a more athletic , cute , ladys man as a son and not some sensitive female-like child . Im just tired of life . u may see it as a little problem if your not gay yourself , but its huge and determines your mood most of the time

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jeff's picture

Well...

Pretty much the same advice as last journal. The world is going to change and become much cooler to you anytime soon (although it has changed for the better a lot already). The world changes when you accept yourself and start acting from that point of view.

I mean, straight people in opposite sex relationships with kids? Sounds fine. Why should they be gay? Of course, you also don't know their story either. She may be bisexual and decided she liked this guy, so it worked out that way for her. He could have some other story.

Usually, if no one wants to be around you, you have to look at the common denominator here: you. If you are uncomfortable with yourself, that likely colors how you interact with other people (not to mention trying to randomly mount all these guys, heh), so again, life changes when you change.

And, of course, if you are indeed surrounded by idiots, when you accept yourself, you will be confident enough to just bail on them and find new people.

Your mother probably wants you to be happy above all else, and you're not. But, of course, if she wants you to be something you're not, that is really her problem, not yours.

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"You can judge the whole world on the sparkle that you think it lacks" - Dawes, When My Time Comes (http://youtu.be/Z0FrcTX6hWI)