Im a 15 year old boy . Im battling with being gay and I dont want to be gay . I imagine having a wife with kids but Im just not attracted to females for some odd reason . Well , it was a couple a months ago when I was spending a night at my cousens house , all night we seemed to be flirting and I got a few gay vibes for him . So when we were about to go to sleep , i was so tempted , got under the covers with him and got on top of him (THATS IT) hes 15 too , and he turned over and said "What you doin." He left the room and waited until i was sleep to come back to the bed and sleep . The second time , he was sleeping another night , I crept behind him woth my penis towards his behind and he woke up and dragged me off of his bed and said " Stay the FUCK off of my bed , like seriously." He went downstairs , him and my cousens came back up 30 minutes later , i pretended i was sleep , and heard them saying if i touched them theyd beat my ass and joking around with my gayness . I left the very next day , and they told my other cousen and god knows who else . my brother went over the next week and they told him . But it was a little while ago , so im here because my brother throws it in my face and told my mother and sister knowing it bothers me . i bet my mother beleives him because I humped my brother while he was sleeping then he woke . It sounds so creepy but im not a rapist . i just get the urge to do it because i know theyd ridicule me for asking them for sex . im very cool and im not even a weirdo like that . . i prohibit myself from spendin the night over any mens house cause id get tempted . PLLLEEASE HELPP . I AM HURTING INSIDE SOOOOO BADD .