i feel like such a monster and such a screw-up.
i want to write and i feel jittery but calm but i dont know what to write.
i dont feel like talking about any of the shit going on now. but no, i'm not "ok" or "fine" or whatever other word you think i should use to make others happy.
it doesnt even really matter anyway, now does it?
#bpd taking over like a fucking dictator.