SO I meant to post this the other night, but...

hellonwheels's picture

My mom came down into the room as I was typing it up, and I closed the page.

Anyway, a lot has happened in the past few weeks.

on a totally random note...when the hell did Ron Artest change his name to Metta WorldPeace? seriously?

anyway, the other night, it was our local pride celebration, nearly a month after the regular seattle pride.

First thing my mom asked when she came home...why didn't I go?

I was wondering why in the hell it was on her computer's history the other night, it seemed like she would maybe be going w/ one of her lesbian friends, or a group from her church.

I don't know if she has ever been before, but I know she is a supporter of gays and gay rights.

What kinda pissed me off, is that she wass so dfamn comfortable talking about it, quite loudly, and with every fucking single window in the house open.

I swear to god, our neighbors are 5 feet away, and I guarantee they can hear things from the windows!!! ahhh! that is exactly why I hated telling her.

anyway, I did NOT go to the pride event, and I will tell you why.

FOr one thing, only about 50 people EVER show, ever.

For another, it is nothing but leather wearing freaks, and drag queens.

Every single year. sometimes there are normal ish people there, but the majority of the time, it is all drag queens. I mean, the headliner was a queen/ diva singer person, and also, it just isn't a vibe I ever feel. idk,

It is weird as hell. the people there are weird as hell.

I am just not into the 'gay community' thing.

I don't fit into it, or at least haven't found that group I do fit into...anyway.

idk. there was something I was gonna say, but I cannot remember what it was, and now it is late as hell, so I think I am gonna crash out.



hellonwheels's picture

Oh yeah, I also made it two days w/o

facebook since deleting it. Getting there!

Mental wounds not healing, driving me insane, i'm goin' off the rails on a crazy train- the ozzman

jeff's picture

Add me!

I'll make inappropriate sexual remarks whenever you post about going out for a bike ride, etc.

"You can judge the whole world on the sparkle that you think it lacks" - Dawes, When My Time Comes (

jeff's picture


You seem to have a lot of knowledge about an event you never attend. How much of it is accurate?

"You can judge the whole world on the sparkle that you think it lacks" - Dawes, When My Time Comes (

hellonwheels's picture

based on the videos...

most of it...and also, right next to a co-workers apt in that neighborhood..., so totally not going. lol

Mental wounds not healing, driving me insane, i'm goin' off the rails on a crazy train- the ozzman

jeff's picture


Someone with a video camera shot the interesting bits and not the gay people who looked like their boring suburban neighbors?! How odd...

"You can judge the whole world on the sparkle that you think it lacks" - Dawes, When My Time Comes (

Sam2000's picture


I've been to a few PRIDE celebrations and I saw the same things, except there were always a lot of families there, the I Have Two Dads/Moms shirts. At the one I was in a wheelchair and got lots of stares, like what are THEY doing here?

I've seen footage from gay parades at the church youth group as an example of what gays are like and I wish we had a better image than this to show the outside world? I know some of you will get all pissy about that but this is something that needs to be discussed more IMHO.

But, Hell, you can make a difference by being yourself and doing what you are here, being an awesome role model to kids just like me : )) I know that has to sound dumb but YOU are making a DIFFERENCE to me!!!! Oasis is a part of the gay community, we're just real people in a cyber existance.


PS you didn't reply to my last message : (

jeff's picture


I am skeptical whenever anyone seems to go into a situation with preconceived notions and then somehow they come true. Like you being able to telepathically know that people were wondering what you were doing at Pride, as opposed to wondering why you might be in a wheelchair, or thinking wow, someone so young at Pride, or lots of other things...

As for footage to show the outside world, that's sort of irrelevant. Anti-gay people make anti-gay videos, so people who are anti-gay can see that what they think about gays is right. I can make a beautiful video, and they aren't going to see it.

There is a certain irony that so many people don't go to pride because there's no one like them there and, again, you make your reality true by staying home.

That said, if you watch sports on TV (I am clearly making this example up), you are likely to see people who crafted signs in advance, or wear wigs, or paint their faces or paint their chests. Do they represent most of the people at the football game? No. But do the other people at the football game just wearing fleece and enjoying the game care? No.

It is the job of the media to report an event, but pride is a celebration, not a political event. So, if you're a 7 foot tall drag queen in head to toe purple glitter, you are way more likely to get on the nightly news than Fred and Bob the gay accountants, because you'd ONLY use Fred and Bob if you had an agenda to "accurately portray gay people in a positive way."

But, no, we show people vomiting, fighting and in green on St. Patrick's Day, drunk and wearing very little clothing on Spring Break, throwing beads and drinking at Mardi Gras, etc.

The difference is that no one cares about those other examples, and that is because you think a leather guy with his ass out, or a big drag queen, or hot muscle gogo boys somehow will inform people about who you are for being gay, and that is ONLY true if you stay quiet and don't tell them. And, for as long as you look at those things and are concerned, it only indicates that you have an issue, typically internalized homophobia (so this is an appropriate tangent for hell's journal, heh) that needs to be worked out.

There IS an issue when you see people at pride and think it's wrong, but it's not an external one. Never will be.

"You can judge the whole world on the sparkle that you think it lacks" - Dawes, When My Time Comes (

Bosemaster42's picture

I have to agree,

I attend the Hemp Fest in Boston annually. I'm actually there to support the decriminalization effort and yes while there I will indulge. Later that night, while watching the news coverage of the event, invariably, they interview 12-13 year old stoned kids. It's not representative of the majority of people who attend. I've been to Pride in the past and had similar reservations, but, ultimately you may meet someone refreshing to talk to while there. They could look weird, but that's just part of the festive nature of different people.

hellonwheels's picture

was that when the site was having issues?

Because I thought I had dude. If not, I will read it tonight when I get back from work.


Mental wounds not healing, driving me insane, i'm goin' off the rails on a crazy train- the ozzman

Dracofangxxx's picture

It sounds mostly like you're being really negative.

Maybe if you stretched out of your comfort zone and goofed around with some of the "weird" people, you'd have fun....

and you said they were "weird as hell". Well if they're as weird as you, you should fit in... ;)
That's redick!

Perhaps We Should Leave's picture


I take offense at your calling people freaks. I may not be a fan of leather, but since when do you get to say who's a freak? Obviously they're abnormal, because they aren't normal, but a freak implies that their abnormality is extremely negative. I'm not convinced that you're the one to decide that.

* * *
You'll see him in your head, on the TV screen
And hey buddy, I'm warning you to turn it off
He's a ghost, he's a god, he's a man, he's a guru
You're one microscopic cog in his catastrophic plan
Designed and directed by his red right hand

jeff's picture


Let's face it, you are a fan of leather. ;-)

"You can judge the whole world on the sparkle that you think it lacks" - Dawes, When My Time Comes (