Well , since my brother brought up the situation of me and my cousen notifying her and my sister i was gay because of it , I havent went up stairs to talk or see them none today and its 4:31 p.m . It sucks ! I can just look at them yesterday when they walk past and dont want anything to do with me knowing the fact that i might be gay . like coming out to them is defenitly not a option now , ill just let them find out on their own when I become a pop star when im older . I cant survive these last 3 years being in a house full of disgust . But i need help on knowing how to cope with these situations with moving on and not making these mistakes again . Do you think they are demons tempting me to want sex from my fam , or is it just an addiction ? I also whatch gay porn just begging the Devil/God (Who ever would help me) to find someone to embrace in a sexual way because it looks soooooo good and enjoyable .