Last Saturday night, I took LSD and I'm using this journal to chronicle what I remember of my experience and thoughts, but beforehand - I don't advocate use of drugs. If you're doing drugs you should be educated on the possible adverse effects of what you're doing. You should also do them in a safe environment with people you trust.
I'm also not looking for judgement on my lifestyle or choices, be it good or bad. This is a reference for myself that I also want to share with people who are interested.
On Saturday night there was a Psytrance rave from 1030pm - 700am. I got a free tab of acid off my current romantic interest and took the tab about 30 minutes before arriving.
The first thing I remember is an overwhelming euphoria - a very different kind than other drugs like MDMA, a much stronger one. The rave was actually located inside a room above some shops, and I remember sitting in a storefront, smoking cigarettes and talking to my friend about potentially turning into a thrift store bobbles.
I kept going in and out for a bit to see the people I knew. I was also a bit nervous since I wasn't experiencing any of the open eye visuals at this point.
I began to get some of the open-eye visuals at one point when I was with some of my friends outside. I was giving them a nug of weed and I noticed it was breathing. Everything seems to breathe on acid. My depth perception was also warped - things looked much closer together and I could compare my vision to looking through a fisheye lens. Patterns also appeared on uniform surfaces.
Closed eye visuals were also quite interesting, usually patterns based on triangular shapes, with many of them involving, oddly, Batman, dolphins and series of letters and numbers.
The main thing of LSD that really caused the "trip" was the difference in perspective of time. Passing of time seemed directly linked to the space I was occupying - if I was outside or in the room or dancing. 5 minutes could feel like 3 hours. If I went to occupy a different space, the time spent in a previous space seemed like eons ago.
Some of the cooler visual / aural experiences :
- Looking at plants and flowers was very cool since they seemed to be constantly growing. I put a flower in a pill bottle and stared at it for what felt like an hour (it was really about 7 minutes, though).
- Music had a physical effect on me, and dancing felt so easy and thoughtless.
- Walking outside in the morning when the sun rose was beautiful. I could hear the wind whispering and see clouds forming into shapes, one of which was a palace being carried by an elephant. If I am to take LSD again, I will do it during the day-time.
Some of the less cool visual / emotional experiences :
- Looking at my face in a mirror. I saw my face completely distorted and moving in ways I was not moving, and it was one of the most disturbing things I've seen in my lifetime.
- At 5AM, a few of the really drugged-up guests decided to smoke a "space joint" (DMT). The cackle produced by these people was the worst noise I have heard in my entire life. I can't even describe it.
- A brief moment where I felt as though the experience was overwhelming - I remember clearly wanting the experience to stop at one point since I was very confused.I should point out that the set up/decor of the rave was completely trippy. There were walls covered in geometrical patterns, sculptures, paintings... There was something new to notice each time you'd go into one of the rooms. It made for an overwhelming experience.
I had a mostly introspective trip. LSD allows you to disassociate yourself while you're on it, and it gave me a lot to think about, and I'm still thinking about it. I realized what a negative outlook I had on myself and life and it made me want to change things for the better. For the first time in a very long time I felt actively involved with the people around me and with myself.
I still have a lot to define and there's much more to this than what I've journalled here, but overall I can say that taking LSD was a life-changing experience and that it has inspired me to make better life choices.