Facebook + love life + rambling?

Dracofangxxx's picture

ok so like a bunch of shit happened with the lady so things aren't great anymore

I don't know at the minute if I'll be unlazy enough to write about it

BUT FIRST OK guys I finally got a facebook so
if anyone wants to friend me or something idk http://www.facebook.com/shelby.noelle.79 here you go

I'm pretty boring on there. Like, what do you even post on Facebook? I feel so awkward. I don't know what the vibe is at allll. I changed my interested in to men/women, which wasn't hard at all for me to do, so I mean, there's no repercussions if anyone sees I'm connected through oasis, really. Most people assume I"m a lesbian. THe hard part isn't coming out as gay, it's getting the guys to know I'm not full on dyke!

Uhm
okay i painted my nails as an excuse to give me time to write stuff about the ladyfriend

okay
so
RECAP
miche is a beautiful blonde green eyed lady that has caught my eye over the summer
woops shes also really funny and intelligent
woops shes got a shitty bf

for example
she says i love you to him
he goes
i know
or
you better
and not like
you better ;D
juist
you better.

creepy

last weekend he was not paying miche much attention
never texting her first, not being lovey, one-word replies, etc
made miche upset to the point of throwing up (she gets that often when stressed, so do I)

she tells me all this, falls asleep in my arms, etc.

so I like her a lot
she likes me
what a babe
thinks I'm the "most amazing girl she's ever met" and "fucking attractive'
oh hell to the yes
but boyfriend
so she kinda flirts harder with me than i do with her, and i'm like
hey
you're the one with the bf that cares
it's really stressfull to have someone go like 99% into a kiss and you can't make it happen because
hey
you don't want to be the girl she's cheating on her bf with!
then she'd feel guilty and tell him and he'd dump her, she'd be sad, etc.

nobody wants to break hearts!

so i totally hold back even though i could have broke them up, because she kinda led me on to believe that her bf was crappy and that she was going to dump him this weekend
well
apparently
things are
~back to normal~ between them

and she doesn't/can't hit on me anymore?

LIKE
no
okay
you can't cheat on your bf only when he's shitty and say that's okay "because he was ignoring me"

ALSO OK MY NAILS ARENT DRY BUT I HAVE a SUPER BAD CROTCH ITCH
GIRLS, YOU KNOW HOW BAD THIS IS

anyways so now idk what to do about this chick
she's like
not realyl trying to be malicious
after all who can resist MA SEXAYNESS

i guess i'll just be her friend but goddamn she cried her way into my heart and flirted so hard with me

SUbJECT cHANGE PANDORa INTRODUCED ME TO THE MOST HILARIOUS FUCKING BAND
I think Chad might love this

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fYtOfJaj1NA

the lyrics... oh god.

she's so hot, she's making me sexist..... bitch

Every fukken song by these guys cracks me up, I also really like Mutha'uckers

so many mutha'uckers, 'uckin' with our shi'

BACK ON TOPIC

i think i'mma respect the boundaries of this chick, but she's got such low self esteem I think she "cheats" because i actually make her feel good
she's a good girl, don't think she's not

still
lost opportunity?

makes me real sad, man. i like her a looooooooooooooooooooooooot :(

okay i think my nails are dry enough and I'm kinda bored. I'm gon' go do somethin' else.

Comments

elph's picture

I hate FB!

But... I guess it's largely my fault:

(1) I just cannot fathom how to control this multi-tentacled beast

(2) There are those I know who are on FB... but I do not wish to risk the likelihood of my being ignored if I request being a "friend"

****

btw... sorry about the seemingly rapid "turn-around" of affections. Hopefully, it will still turn out well!

Like your innovative paragraphing! :)

Tycoondashkid's picture

im with you

but for different reasons, its main population are uneducated idiots who i swear never have been to school for one day, as well as massive amounts of Racists, Sexists, Homophobes etc

Dracofangxxx's picture

1.) it's really easy once you get the hang of it

2.) almost everyone accepts every single friend request, even if they don't know the person. So your worries are for naught :P

I mostly use FB to keep in contact with my friends- I don't have unlimited texting so it's often hard to reach the people I know in person, but don't have the number of!...

I HOPE IT TURNS OUT WELL TOO... she's much too awesome to just let go so easily :C

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That's redick!

elph's picture

Yeah...

But that's what frightens me... how should I feel when one doesn't! I am fairly sure of one such...

I just don't want to "know" with certainty...

Super Duck's picture

Sorry things aren't working

Sorry things aren't working out with the girl :(

Dracofangxxx's picture

Ehh, it's okay.

I mean, at least I got ONE night of holding a total babe in my arms while she slept! Better than nothing! :P
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That's redick!

Super Duck's picture

Haha, just remember, no

Haha, just remember, no matter what you are doing better than me. :P I count it as a good day if a hot girl looks in my general direction.

Bosemaster42's picture

Patience,

Perhaps miche will come around. You never know.

Dracofangxxx's picture

I sure hope so :( <3

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That's redick!

elph's picture

Me, too...

:)

hellonwheels's picture

easy...

have her leave said d-bag boyfriend, and that's that. btw, sent you a request on FB. Just so it doesn't come across all stalker-y or weird. y' know?

Mental wounds not healing, driving me insane, i'm goin' off the rails on a crazy train- the ozzman

Dracofangxxx's picture

I'm trying! Guh :( She's a stubborn one!

I do know! I was wondering, there, for a while, who that was :P

YOU LOOK SO MUCH YOUNGER THAN I THOUGHT YOU WERE
LIKE I KNOW YOUR PROFILE SAYS YOU'RE ONLY 19 BUT I THOUGHT YOU WERE LIKE 25 AND SOME GRUFF BIKER DUDE DANG

you seriously act super mature, I was so fooled

Interested in women? Hell! Don't lie to the public, bruh <3 :C
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That's redick!

hellonwheels's picture

I don't think I have touched my...

. ...interested in settings...since I was probably 17. haha. My fb profile says 25? nah....24. lol. I also need to update my user profile on here I guess.

yeah, yeah...guilt trip me all you want, shelby. I can't accept teh gayness....still....lol

I will probably end out like maurice sendak and not tell anyone...least anyone I grew up w/, knew or immediate family....minus mom.

Least I don't have the bullshit of my dad hanging over my head anymore.

Mental wounds not healing, driving me insane, i'm goin' off the rails on a crazy train- the ozzman

Dracofangxxx's picture

your Facebook doesn't show your age :P

unless I really suck at finding it??? which I guess I do :P

You really DO need to update iit. Either way, you still look hella young. So unfair.

seriously though- nothing to be ashamed about. If you can't control it, it's not worth being upset over. What can you do? Nothing.
Burdening yourself over things that can not be changed or helped only pushes unhappiness and stress on you, which you don't need.

BBY U WERE BORN DIS WAY
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That's redick!

jeff's picture

Oh sure...

But still avoiding me on FB, hehehe...

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