So, watching 6 Feet Under all over, once again, like the 3rd time.
God, it's really so, kinda pathetic, I don't connect all that much to the people in my boring, same old same old life, but I actually feel so much more, from a fucking TV show.
Like I watched it once, felt nothing, didn't even like it much.
Watched it again, and this time I felt a little more, and even cried at the finale, where they have that beautiful ending montage.
And this time, I feel like I know the characters. I know they're just hypothetical, dramatic people dreamt up by a man named Alan Ball, but still, sometimes they seem more real than almost anyone at high school.
I mean, this time I've actually cried a number of times, at a fucking show. When Brenda's dad died, I cried. When the Fishers' dad dies at the beginning, I cried.
Now I just finished the 3rd season.
God, it's such a long show. But a great one.
See, they have hugely high highs and really low lows, but it seems like either way they fit in a fuck of a lot more life into their life than I ever have.
Like I literally do the same thing every single day.
I mean I try to inject a little adrenaline into school, but it's just not that exciting of a place. It's not terrible, don't get me wrong, but it's just a bit dull.
And with how early we get up, fuck, it's a wonder we all stay awake. Biology is my favorite class, cause of where I sit, both at the side of the room, facing towards everyone, and in the back, I get to survey a vast crowd of fairly attractive guys, and then I can fall asleep if what we're learning isn't too essential (science has always been where my best subjects are).
It seems like a lot of the reasons we do things, for example, why we have the technology we do, and how we use it, except for things like medical science and food security, most of the things we do and make aren't really to make life better, it's to make life easier.
Like, I go to school now, and sit there, for 7 hours. I hardly move.
And, if I didn't want to, I could ride the bus home, and then sit at home, and hardly move.
I ride my bike so much partly because it just drives me the fuck crazy.
I mean, aside from just how bad for you it is, how unnatural (bodies evolved to fucking MOVE), it's just dull, and I feel having at least like some tedious, repetitive manual labor job, would be better than having some tedious, repetitive office job, because office jobs, and how you sit around in them, it's depressing.
Like when we go to the Department of Licensing, to get my license and shit, you have to talk to the accountant receptionist people, who, don't get me wrong, are nice, but they're all, every one of them overweight. Most of them must just not have any time to exercise, and they spend the majority of their waking hours sitting in a single spot.
How fucking depressing can it get?
I'm sorry I'm being depressing now, because usually I feel good, I've been feeling good for the past while now, but now I'm not so much.
I guess it just happens.
Anyway, I need to get to some tedious, repetitive math exercises, wouldn't want to leave those waiting!