'An Apology'

Bosemaster42's picture

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Seclusion from humanity seems the only justice,
pulling me from the deviant thought of self-sacrifice.
Provoking feelings better left unseen and locked away.
Never intending to depreciate your humanity.
My soul is incongruous, mastering the art of duplicty.
Loving you never seemed so inconceivable.
So much I wanted to share, too afraid of rejection.
I'd take it back if I could, but you've heard that selection.
Condescending to the level of those I hate, I'll never sleep.
Changing who you are was never on my agenda.
Enduring my twisted view of love, in all it's splendor.
Turn away from the vortex of self-pity, seek the truth.
Creating scenarios of your own choosing, can never soothe.
Your beauty, tenacity, and creativity charms my inner ghost.
Thinking of you everyday, loving you the most.
Wish now I heard your cries of protest and alienation,
To say it would have stopped me cold, is no exaggeration.
What does'nt kill you makes you stronger, so they say.
Better six feet above than six under, jamming all the way.

Comments

elph's picture

For me... the most emotive line is:

"So much I wanted to share, too afraid of rejection."

Bosemaster42's picture

I wrote this a few years ago,

It's much deeper than any one line of it. A lot of different emotions involved in it's creation. I'll leave it at that.

elph's picture

That's not disputed...

I was merely pointing one very poignant line (for me). :)

Bosemaster42's picture

Oh,

I see. The most poignant line for me is " My soul is incongruous, mastering the art of duplicity".

angel syndrome's picture

"Your beauty, tenacity, and

"Your beauty, tenacity, and creativity charms my inner ghost."
if someone said this to me i would melt

elph's picture

Uh...

That, too!

Bosemaster42's picture

I could only wish,

It had that effect on the intended target, as usual my choice was faulty, at the time. Thank you, though.