October 31, 2012

javier's picture

Dressing up for halloween isn't easy; especially when wearing face paint. And that's how it was for me. I dressed up as a mime along with two of my friends. We called ourselves the mime gang, or more sophisticated the mime troupe. It was really fun though we weren't entered into the contest which we thought we'd win. But it's alright.

This week has been very depressing and I don't know why and I can't explain it either it's just the bad thoughts are coming back but they're not welcome. I have also realized that being in places with a lot of people make me sad and uninterested because I have no idea. Films that are happy or optimistic make me sad yet sad movies make me numb. I don't feel anything when I watch sad movies because it's the truth and the truth isn't scary. Sometimes I feel happy (like today) and sometimes I feel sad (like two days ago) but it's all a routine that makes me uncomfortable. And I can't break it, even if I wanted to.

I've started reading Dubliners by James Joyce and some short stories by O. Henry. Both are very enjoyable.

Comments

jeff's picture

Hmm...

Better to feel sad than numb, no? At least you're feeling something.

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"You can judge the whole world on the sparkle that you think it lacks" - Dawes, When My Time Comes (http://youtu.be/Z0FrcTX6hWI)

elph's picture

So... This must have been at school?

Post was a wee bit early in the evening for serious tricks-or-treating?

So what was it... DVD movies at home with friends... or, maybe you can't remember?

I think that latter guess is extremely unlikely...

MaddieJoy's picture

"the bad thoughts are coming back but they're not welcome.

I have also realized that being in places with a lot of people make me sad."
Hear hear

The ducks will get you!