this video is freaking awesome.

hellonwheels's picture

two of my favorite trails in the entire state are featured, as is the riding of an old racing buddy of mine...god damn I want to ride sooo bad right now, my wrist is still broken, will have the cast off soon though.

http://www.pinkbike.com/news/Trevor-Parson-A-Shift-in-Gears-video-2012.h...

I really need to get over myself and come out. fuck, it is bullshit that I am so uncomfortable w/ myself and not able to come to terms.

shit has been going so far south lately. Injuries, missed work, my dad dying...and now I am sick as hell and missing a family member's birthday.

I honestly need to get out and date soon. But it hasn't happened yet. I feel like I just need to ride to get away from things, but I can't. Also gaining a TON of weight since my injury since I can't workout...back up to 215, and that's not good....fml.

At least listening to soundgarden's new shit and alice in chains/mad season have been keeping me somewhat sane.

I don't even remember what I was trying to say at this point-my ability to organize my thoughts on paper sucks, and so does my short term memory as of late. I spend entirely too much time doing nothing, and being in front of a TV or a Computer.

So I'll leave you with this...something a friend of mine posted on her facebook today, sorta fits the wanting to ride theme of this post.

hell

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hdPXd95IQeE&feature=youtu.be

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hellonwheels's picture

PS-if you made it to the road gap part of that video...

towards the leavenworth segment...I really need to man up and hit that gap again next time I am out there. Last time I rode that trail, I was alone, and didn't want to be out there in the middle of nowhere alone while broken.

Mental wounds not healing, driving me insane, i'm goin' off the rails on a crazy train- the ozzman

jeff's picture

Yeah...

I agree, it is time for you to be out, babe.

I mean, you issues used to be what your dad would think (he's dead), what your friends would think (a bunch of them are dead), and as far as how it would impact your life, you have half a million dollars to build any life you want right now.

Not sure what else has to line up to make this happen...

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Bosemaster42's picture

Pretty nasty,

That ridge trail looks pretty insane, just for the view. Where did the helicopter come from? Looked like an optical illusion with your friend coming down the trail and it's below him.
Work your legs while your arm/hand heals, after you feel better, of course. 215 huh? Your creeping into my weight class now.
Yeah, I've liked what i've heard so far, from both bands. I have'nt heard all the tracks yet, though.

hellonwheels's picture

It's an R.C. helicopter...

Runs on nitrous or high octane gas, depending on which one he uses, he has a few. Love that trail w. the ridge. Just wish he had gotten more of the gnarly ridgeline in it, what you saw there was just the teaser.

I have been hiking a lot, since I can't do much else.

not digging the new soundgarden as much as I thought I would, but after listening to each song once or twice, it became tolerable.

Mental wounds not healing, driving me insane, i'm goin' off the rails on a crazy train- the ozzman

Bosemaster42's picture

Yeah,

I felt the same way about Soundgarden. Love Cornell's voice.
I'd have better luck skiing down a mountain like that. I'd probably kill myself on a BMX.

jeff's picture

So....

What are your thoughts about coming out? What is the big hurdle now? How can we start making this happen, babe?

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hellonwheels's picture

I dunno...

Not sure it will ever fully happen...I'll be like maurice sendak...family and friends won't know fully until I'm dead. lol.

Mental wounds not healing, driving me insane, i'm goin' off the rails on a crazy train- the ozzman

jeff's picture

Well...

There's a big difference between living an interesting gay life that you don't share with a lot of people, and living a conflicted near-heterosexual existence with no one attending to your balls.

I'm fine with you being a big fag who is out having fun, but for some dumb reason still has something of a closet. But that doesn't seem to be the case...

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