I don't even know what to write about, I just feel like fucking splashing all my emotions on some fucking page and just screaming out to the world and shit. I don't know. I fucking hate surgery. All these damn meds are getting me so high.
Remember when I used to post all those journals when I was all high and shit? Those were fucking crazy. I was reading them a few nights ago and I can't even believe some of the shit I wrote. Drugs are fucking evil, one day they're gonna kill me. I'm such a pathetic waste, oh my god. I can never escape it. I don't wanna be high anymore, get me off of this shit.
I wanna live in the rain where I belong. I just want to go into my fantasies and be there for eternity. I used to always dream of lost, ancient realms full of ruins tucked in the depths of rain forests. I wish those dreams never left me.
I wish I never touched that DXM shit, it ruined me forever. It started me on this fucking endless road. It hurts and makes me scream on the inside but nobody hears me. Nobody knows how sad I am. That god awful birthday party. Where I thought I locked myself in the bathroom stall and someone had to come get me. So fucking humiliating.
I need to sleep. Bye.