Baby Steps

MaddieJoy's picture

I just bought a rainbow bracelet, one of those big rubber ones. Maybe not the best way of coming out, but I figure if I wear it my gayety will just kind of seep into the general conciousness.
Oh, and I have a new crush. Her name is Fiona and she's SO BEAUTIFUL! She has hair that's just exactly in between gold & red, and her nose is like a china doll's (cheesy as hell, I know, but too bad). Sometimes I look at her across the classroom & when she sees me, I smile at her--just a little, it takes forever for my smile to come all the way--but she smiles back. No one EVER smiles back. No one ever realizes I'm smiling. And for some reason she looks like she has a secret. Maybe not the same one I do, but I'd like to know it anyway. I'd also like to sing Mona Lisa to her, but that's a story for another day.
Anyway, blissfully crushing & coming out a little...good times.


anarchist's picture

Good news here.

Even if your crush goes nowhere, from personal experience I can tell you that it will still be a worthwile experience after it's over.

Prepare yourself for the questions about the wrist band.

MaddieJoy's picture

I'm ready.

It's easier to answer a question then start a discussion.

The ducks will get you!

anarchist's picture

Not really.

Ask yourself about your wrist band out loud. That'll start a discussion pretty quickly.

MaddieJoy's picture


a discussion about my mental health. But I find it easier to say "yes" or "no" than to say "hey, btw, I'm gay..."

The ducks will get you!

anarchist's picture

I guess.

You can just do what I did, though. That is tell a friend you're a homosexual whom you know can't keep a secret at all. And within about a month, pretty much everybody and their mother know.

elph's picture

An anecdote from life...

Beautiful... and beautifully told! (How can I tell? My eyes were moist!)

I fervently hope that a beautiful friendship (with apologies to...) blossoms!


And... anarchist: Your chrysalis seems to be cracking... if only just a bit. You've actually experienced an unrequited crush... and just now letting out hints? Or... have I just not been paying attention?

Anyway... I liked your comments (particularly #1). And, this is not sarcasm!

anarchist's picture

Not just now letting out hints.

Remember the first six months or so of my posts on here? That whole thing.

elph's picture

You mean those preceding...

your transmogrification? :)

MacAvity's picture


Eye-flirting and smiling is good. Rainbows and ways of being more out without making a big deal of it is good. are. are good.