When a Childhood Hero Lets You Down

MaddieJoy's picture

He was my director the first time I was in a play. His Elmo impression was infamous amongst the younger actors, and he was always ready with a hug or high-five for those who needed it. this was a man who I admired, looked up to. I even loved him, because he was a part of the theatre that was also my home.
I knew him for ten years, though the last few years we saw each other less. Then today my director came to ask me how long I had been friends with him on Facebook. The questions kept coming, and finally I had to ask.
"Is something wrong?"
And that's when he told me. How he had had to let the man go. How he had had an "inappropriate relationship" with a girl in my theatre. That if anything had happened to me, I should tell him. And something had happened to me. But it wasn't something he could fix--no one can take the adult problems and complications away from my life.
Because, as I realized, I was not really sad about my director--we hadn't talked in months, and I've grown to expect people to have layers and be fallible. What I was mourning was the undeniable end of my childhood. Just as my director had made a grown-up mistake, my life has become that of a grownup. I'm not a child anymore, and it took the loss of one of my heroes to realize it.

IN more chipper news, I received an Xbox360 & Kinect, Catherine Howard Tudor doll for my collection, Civ V, Dance Central, AND the Rat Pack karaoke collection. That made me feel better.


Bosemaster42's picture

Hey sweetie,

Sorry to hear about your old director. These things seem to happen more frequently these days or we just hear about it more due to the internet & media. Anyway, I hope you have a merry christmas and an exciting new year.

radiosilence95's picture


That's a real bummer. Just goes to show that you can never know everything about a person, that true natures are so well-hidden at times.

I mean, my old boss was fired for sending sexual texts to a co-worker who was my age, and he was so nice. It's weird how these things work out. But what can you do except move along?