Hey everyone! Long time no post. A lot has changed since I've last been on here. Where do I start?
Well I'm a "friend" with my ex. I'm still deeply in love with her. But I'm trying not to be an evil ex, you know? It's actually a lot worse even though we aren't together. The fighting. It's like neither of us feels like their's closure. It's hard not to want to kiss her or hold her hand. I have to stop myself when I talk sometimes. I accidentally call her "babe" or "love" or whatever else I nicknamed her.
I text her like all the time. "Hi" "have a good day" "imy" "ily" "goodnight". Speaking of my angel. She's finally texted back. Laughing because I'm being a dork. I love her laugh. I can hear it in my head. Her voice...
I'm obsessed. Don't you think? Sadly I don't know how to fix it. 1 year, 3 months, and 17 days of someone doesn't go away in the blink of an eye.
My mom is planning on having a baby with this guy who is in love with her. I might be a big sister again ^.^
I've got anxiety probs. I need medication again.
I need real friends lol.
My new nickname is Chapin. Pronounced "Ch-A-pin". Long a or whatever. Don't ask how it came up. Out of nowhere really.