The journal I wrote for today is about my coming out story, so in case anyone's interested, it is here:
It is kind of funny of how utterly capable we are of deluding ourselves into believing the antithesis of who we really are. There are some shared similiarities to that story, however, mine occurred in person. In fact, when I was eighteen I started hanging out with a sixteen year old. We played hockey together, mostly against each other, and we would talk after the games. It's funny when I think back, we were both playing cat and mouse(verbally) with each other until I instigated a soiree, if you will. It was amazing and truly opened my eyes to the truth.
I'm still surprised that I was never actually closeted. I went from clueless to gay.
"You don't know you're beautiful." - Harry Styles
Yeah, I actually had sex with a woman(older) the year before, I think she was a dental hygienist and she frequented the gas station I worked at on the weekends. She was like 23. She came in Late,usually on Saturday nights. The gas station was full-service, which meant we washed your windows and asked to check fluids. I guess it turned her on when I asked "Can I check under your hood?" Her eyes, were soul piercing, like I could tell she wanted to fuck me. She thought I was older and asked me out for a drink, I told her I was only 17 and she didn't believe me at first, but she met me after work and I went to her place over in Brookline, not far from where I now work.
It was over rather quickly and I was somehow relieved by that. Deep down, I never wanted to have to do that again. I almost felt bad about it( probably the Catholicism kicking in) but I didn't want to hurt a girls heart like that. Anyway, I don't think she was offended.
I never did that, I'm a purebred gay.
Thank you for sharing this. Really.
It is slightly crazy to read it now and be like, how could that even be possible?! heh.
Just finished writing the next three days of essays, all with the title Social Unease.
Thursday's essay, part two of three, will be almost an oral history of Oasis. I'll add the link here when it is live. Part one is sort of the pre-Internet, and sets the stage for Oasis, and part three is more about social networks and the upsides and downsides I see in them.
Hard to say, really. All this stuff are really rough drafts. So, I just write, spellcheck, and post. Trying not to over massage these things...
This was interesting, mainly to me because I don't really think about a time when the internet started. It's something we take for granted. I asked my Dad's about AOL and they both told me it the the greatest thing of that time and a real easy way to run up a huge bill!
is about the start of Oasis...