I Think I'm Gonna Die Alone...

PokemonGeek's picture

It's been a long time since I was last here. New Year's Day kind of made me realize that I'm probably will NEVER meet anyone and will die alone. I'm serious. Everytime I meet a guy, he's either straight, taken, or both and those that are single talk to me for about two weeks and the suddenly stop corresponding with me without even telling me why! I just can't meet anyone that I am get so desperate that I'll take just about ANY guy willing to talk to me. I just feel so pathetic. I haven't even gone on a date in my entire LIFE! Maybe I'm just unwantable....

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jeff's picture

Hmm...

Well, how are you trying to meet people?

You mention they "stop corresponding," so I'm wondering if you're trying to only find people online, etc.

More details, please. And I doubt you're unwantable. You may just not letting enough people know to want you?

Anyway, I definitely know where you're coming from with this stuff, babe *hug*

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"You don't know you're beautiful." - Harry Styles

PokemonGeek's picture

Online AND public at the

Online AND public at the only gay bar in my town. They will not respond to any emails or messages I send them or answer or return my calls! There's like fifteen guys who have done this to me in only a year and a half! It also has gotten to the point that I see no real reason to clean my apartment. I mean WHO do I have to impress with it? It's just a waste of time and effort if NO ONE ever comes over!

Poor is the man
Whose pleasures depend
On the permission of another
Love me, that's right, love me
I wanna be your baby
Wanting, needing, waiting
For you to justify my love
Hoping, praying
For you to justify my love
I'm open and ready
~Madonna

jeff's picture

Hmm...

There can be a lot of factors, so it's hard to say, really.

Whatever you're doing doesn't seem to be working, so come up with a new plan?

Let's explore this some more and figure it out, OK?

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"You don't know you're beautiful." - Harry Styles

radiosilence95's picture

I know that feel, man. I

I know that feel, man. I haven't had a lovely lady friend ever in my life. Sometimes it does kind of make me feel crappy, because I see everybody else around me dating and shit. But then I realize that when the right person does come along, it'll mean more and be a lot more special than the people around me who have dated a ton of significant others.

It's a matter of patience, really.

elph's picture

How about university and GSAs?

Your journals of 6 years ago suggest that you were a college student at that time, but little hint to indicate your study program or level.

Most colleges today are quite supportive of their gay students. Have you taken advantage of the social outlets they provide?

I hope you have not given up...

btw: The college paper (assignment) you speak about in this journal no longer appears! Did it ever?

http://www.oasisjournals.com/2006/03/argumentation-paper-for-class

Super Duck's picture

I definitely feel

I definitely feel "unwantable" sometimes too, but I think some of my thoughts may be due to the fact that there really, honestly isn't anywhere to meet anyone within at least a hundred miles of where I live. But anyway, yeah, I totally sympathize with this feeling. Just hang in there! I think maybe a lot of gay people feel this way at times because it can get kind of lonely. I highly doubt you're actually unwantable!

anarchist's picture

This is the Internet, man.

Literally every single person on here has the exact same problem. It's nothing weird, it's just the price of Internet.

Anyway, I was wondering about you a couple of weeks ago. Good that you came back with this update. And now that Chad's back, too, we just need Yamamoto and Perhaps We Should Leave. Then we're one big, happy family again.

jeff's picture

Umm...

Maybe not Yamamoto? ;-)

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"You don't know you're beautiful." - Harry Styles

anarchist's picture

You didn't like him?

Just because he was misunderstood in real life doesn't mean he had to be misunderstood here. But I guess unaccepting people will be unaccepting. I can't change your ignorant beliefs.

jeff's picture

Well...

I tried to ignore him, but he would rail and go crazy every time I would reply to almost anything...

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"You don't know you're beautiful." - Harry Styles

anarchist's picture

Reminds me of someone else.

Who is still on here.

PokemonGeek's picture

Sometimes I don't even

Sometimes I don't even understand why I bother trying to look presentable since NO ONE wants me! Why bother trying to be part of a society that finds you undateable to begin with?

Poor is the man
Whose pleasures depend
On the permission of another
Love me, that's right, love me
I wanna be your baby
Wanting, needing, waiting
For you to justify my love
Hoping, praying
For you to justify my love
I'm open and ready
~Madonna