Today is Caitlin's birthday. I'm excited for her. I drew her a cupcake and said Happy Birthday. She doesn't really care that it's her birthday. She says it's just another day. I'm trying to be a good friend and make it more exciting but she won't talk to me anymore.
I'm on an antidepressant again. I've been so depressed these 2 months. Between my girlfriend leaving me and my grandpa dieing. I miss them both like crazy. I love Caitlin and I love my grandpa. Different loves... same amount of pain. I haven't been to school in weeks. I lost all motivation so my mom took me to see a therapist. She put me on Lexipro. I'm on a low dose but I really feel this stuff working. I'm involuntarily happy 80% of the time. Whoop-dee-doo. This sucks. I hope this gets better.