Now it's Istanbul, now Constantinople...

MaddieJoy's picture

God I'm bored. And frustrated. I seem to have shifted back to being bi & the boy I thought I liked got asked out by a somewhat-friend of mine. Damn! Oh well, it's not like TOLO is really my thing. I'd prefer to have someone else go out on a limb and risk rejection by me than the other way around. But he was really cute and now I'm sad.
Also, the key club's DataMatch results came in & mine are pretty dismal. Out of the 30 results, the people I knew that I was matched with:
1. A teacher (eew!)
2. A girl I'm completely terrified of
3. A gay boy
4. A girl I have a crush on who's been gone for a week
That last one is nice, but like I said, she's been gone & I don't know if she's coming back...sigh. And her hair was so RED too, that's so hot. ;) Also she's a ballerina. And has great comedic timing. Kind of like Lucille Ball. Oh well.
Valentine's wasn't great. My parents gave me some cool stuff but that wasn't really what I wanted/needed, ya know? Although the PJs are nice.
At lunch today I treated myself to a brownie and just as I was about to eat it a bunch of older kids swarmed my table and took it over, even using the chair my backpack was on. I tried to ignore them and keep reading but the "N" word was flying around and two of them were this sickeningly happy couple, so I had to go hide in the bathroom. I would have maybe tried to make conversation with the guy next to me but the way he said "How's that brownie?" was kind of creepy.
Goodnight, y'all. I'm off to eat my "suprise" icecream cake.

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hellonwheels's picture

hmmm...

Interesting matches, maddie. and who knows, you could very well be bi. According to kinsey, few of us are 100% gay or straight...I mean, I thought I was straight, Identified as straight, and to some extent still do, even though I am clearly only attracted to the same sex. I can't explain it really. And at least you GOT something for valentine's day. I didn't get even as much as a carf of a hershey kiss.

hell

Mental wounds not healing, driving me insane, i'm goin' off the rails on a crazy train- the ozzman

jeff's picture

Easy...

You want to be straight. Very different. ;-)

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jeff's picture

Err...

I think you mean NOT Constantinople.

Even old New York was once New Amsterdam. Why they changed it, I can't say. People just liked it better that way...

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hellonwheels's picture

also...

Istanbul and constantinople have changed names a few times back n forth over the years....lol

Mental wounds not healing, driving me insane, i'm goin' off the rails on a crazy train- the ozzman

elph's picture

And... for those Oasies™ desirous of yet further edification :)

On Istanbul vs Constantinople:

http://www.sephardicstudies.org/istanbul.html

Then... there's this: