To a lot of high school students our final year must go out with a bang-whether that means getting a whole new wardrobe, showing a side that people never thought to have seen of you or getting a date for all the social events that are going on that graduating students would most definitely want to take part in. Now, the main problem is that although it’s nice to go to these events with your closest friends and create the best of memories with them, a small part of me wishes that I do that with a potential partner.
Though you may be thinking to yourself ‘Well, why not just go out there and start asking people out?’ It’s hard enough fearing rejection and having to step out of your comfort zone to ask someone out, but when you're gay…its a heck of a lot harder as you have to figure out how you're to approach a person. For example, whether they’re out or not, do they like you, is it safe for me to ask them out and how are they going to react to what I have to say. All this leads to one question-whether or not it’s worth it. Whenever faced with this question, I fall into the trap of saying the same answer and that is "No". Why, may you ask? Well is fear a viable answer?
I’ve always been a reserved/ introverted type of person and stepping out of my comfort zone and risk getting hurt doesn’t sound like a realistic approach to me. Although the possibility of stepping out of my cave and see, experience, learn, and grow or I could remain in this cave where things are safe, cozy, predictable, and be trapped in the same state of mind. The answer seems pretty obvious once it’s written down on paper but its acting on that that's the problem.