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Sam2000's picture

I had my thirteenth birthday last week, but now that I'm "officially" a teenager I don't feel any different. Except that I'm no longer able to call myself a 'tween, and I'm thankful that's over! In some cultures I'd be considered a man now but I don't belong to one of those cultures : (

My Dads threw a really cool birthday party for me, but it was a bittersweet occasion for me. It will be the last time that my best friend Austin and I will get to be together for what may be a long time, and it was hard for me to hold my emotions back so I didn't.

Sam, Austin told me while I cried in his arms, I'll be fine. Don't worry about me.

Austin's Mom lost her job and the family was evicted out of the apartment, and his Dad had a few years added to his jail sentence for bad behavior. They're moving to Texas to live with some relatives, and his Mom has a job lined up but still he'll be so far away. Dad Deux bought him a GoPhone as a going away present and is going to pay his bill, so at least he'll just be a text away. There's a promise of him visiting us this summer, and I can't wait for that.

Austin's boyfriend, my cousin Jake, is even more devastated. They have something that is amazing, and now they'll be apart. I know they decided to allow each other to have other boyfriends, but I don't see either one of them doing that soon.

Sarah and I are still together, but things are even weirder between us. We decided to cool things off between us physically while we're still having a very public relationship, but honestly part of me wants to slide Sam Jr. all the way into her. I finally put it together and realized that I'm bi, while Matthew realized that he's totally gay. He deals with Emily kissing him just to pull off the ruse but he's not into it. Emily knows that, and she being cool about it.

The girls felt being physical with us would add something to make our fake dating status more real but we now know it wasn't necessary, but it's not so bad to have a very pretty girl show an interest in you. Matthew is the one having trouble accepting that, but we deal.

In other news I made friends with a new neighbor, Hayden's a few years older than me and small for his age but he's real easy going and as big of a metal fan as Matthew and I are. He also a drummer, and that could be a good thing.

And judging by his Facebook page he's also on the same team as we are :-))

Sam

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hellonwheels's picture

Hmm....

A lot happened in that short time in that journal....you and that girl are an item now? I remember there was the one time, but maybe I missed something? Anyway, it seems like matthew has some things to deal with. I have been there. I was always the jock type guy in high school. I had cute girls all over me, yet had so much going on outside of school, I couldn't even think of hooking up w/ any of them....hopefully he will figure out how to cope with it soon.

Also, you are only 13 dude....don't be in a rush to define yourself so easily/quickly....if I ran into my 13 year old self today...man. I guess I'm actually the same in quite a few ways, but overall have grown up uite a bit.

anyway, I am glad your other dad is giving you guys that communication line....seems like there's a lotta that gay thing going on in your family....lol.

Oh, and did you see the neighbors of the Westboro Baptist Church today? Amazing. haha. I used to hate the rainbow flag and all it represented, but now, not so much.

Mental wounds not healing, driving me insane, i'm goin' off the rails on a crazy train- the ozzman

Riley-X's picture

Happy B-Day!

Great, another teenage in the world lol! The way you're going Sam Jr. is going to get you into lots of trouble 8X

I'm sorry that Austin had to move away, but I know you two will stay close, and that's way awesome of your other dad to give him a phone. It's a sad day for you but hopefully a new start for a better life for Austin and his family.

Riley