weird dreams

MaddieJoy's picture

I had yet another dream about being pregnant last night. I've been having them for a while and they've gotten more and more real every time. The first one was a month or so ago and very surreal, I was in my house and super pregnant, but it turned out that you can take out a baby and put it in the washer, and thus take a break from the pregnancy. I did but I forgot to put the babies back inside me and there ended up being a bunch of babies and tiny body parts poring out of my dryer, and I was hysterical, screaming for my mom to help me. It was terrifying.
Last night my dream wasn't a story, more of a moment in time--putting my hand on my stomach and feeling the baby kicking. I woke up a little and I could still feel it--for a moment I thought I was actually pregnant! it turns out that I had had my hand on my stomach in real life the whole time, and I had been feeling my own heartbeat in this one spot that kind of pulses sometimes.
But it was so freaky! One of my worst fears is pregnancy for some reason, when I was younger and didn't know how that *stuff* happens I was always afraid I would wake up pregnant one day, and that I would miscarry...that's the very worst thing that I can imagine happening. The weird thing is that there is absolutely no chance of my actually being pregnant.
So why am I so afraid?

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radiosilence95's picture

Well, if I were a Freudian,

Well, if I were a Freudian, I'd come up with some crazy theory that your subconscious is yearning for motherhood.

But I'm not a Freudian. I've found that I often dream of whatever I'm thinking about before I fall asleep. Anything related to pregnancy or child rearing pop into your head lately when you're about to sleep?

MaddieJoy's picture

I did read a book

with some pregnancies a week or so ago. But I don't usually dream about books.

The ducks will get you!

Bosemaster42's picture

Or,

It could just be your mind throwing scenarios at you while you sleep.
After all, you are now aware of how pregnancy happens. It's a huge responsibility as well, which can allow your fears to run amok.
I mean, I used to worry about how I would carry the family name forward, without getting married and having children in the traditional sense. I was pretty young when I was thinking those things and it was related to knowing I wasn't ever going to have a traditional marriage or children, for that matter.
I don't think you should worry unless the dreams are recurring.

MaddieJoy's picture

oh, they're recurring alright

they change a little, but they come back constantly. But my parents just think I'm weird & my dad hates therapists, so what can I do?

The ducks will get you!

Bosemaster42's picture

After reading,

"Here I go again", I think your full slate of 'friends'/desirables are perhaps causing your mind to work overtime while you're sleeping. I'm sure you're aware of the fact the human brain never actually sleeps? Our bodies sleep, but the mind remains active even during sleep periods. I hope that settles your nerves down a little.
It's funny, but I had this recurring nightmare when I was 13 or 14 years old. I think I had the exact same dream/nightmare for three months and I never did figure out it's signifigance. It would take this whole page to explain the dream in sequence, so I'll give you the short-hand version.
Earthquake wakes me, except it's not an earthquake. I look out my bedroom window and I see Godzilla standing over a hotel I can see in the distance. Godzilla spots me and starts rumbling toward my house, I run out of my room and I hear the doorbell ringing. I run down the hallway, down the stairs(i lived on the second floor) and I open the door. Who's standing there with an evil grin on his face saying "good evening", but Vincent Price.
If you don't know who he is, google the name, he was a creepy Horror Genre actor(Old School). Man, that dream freaked me out!

jeff's picture

Maybe...

It's just a premonition of future events?

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"You don't know you're beautiful." - Harry Styles

MaddieJoy's picture

good lord!

I hope not! But I have found that it helps to calm me down when I imagine what would happen if I realized I was the second Virgin Mother--I would just have a cute little kid and move on. I think it's the fear of what come after that really gets me, especially the idea of a miscarriage. There are so many terrible stories in the movies and books that I've come to think of "pregnancy" and "enormous pain" as synonymous.

The ducks will get you!