Oh, lawd. I don’t really know what’s wrong with me. Am I the only one that gets anxiety when they see they have a PM on Facebook or elsewhere?
I’ve got a friend I’ve known for 10+ years. I haven’t seen him since he moved which was years ago. He added me on Facebook a few years ago and we sent a couple messages back and forth initially to catch up but we haven’t talked since. Today I get an out of the blue “Hey” from him on Facebook. Now, a normal person would simply write back “Hey, what’s up?” Me, though? I read it, I felt stressed, I didn’t know what to say, so I just logged out.
I think there’s something very wrong with me. ><
And I feel this way constantly. Anytime someone tries to initiate a conversation with me over the internet, I freeze up. I feel like I don’t even know how to talk to people anymore. Everything I say comes out horribly awkward or jumbled anyways so that just adds to the not wanting to talk.
Sigh. I suck as a human being.
Anyhow, here's an awesome song I've been listening to a lot lately.
Love the entire song but especially the first verse.
Oh reluctant man who's afraid to touch the world
Why are you hiding?
What is the base of all your fears?
Do you find yourself in a cold, cruel world?
Dark and desperate
Scared and lonely