I’m starting to wonder if I’m just an outsider by nature, and if that’s ever going to change. I was sort of hanging out with friends today, but I felt kind of invisible because I wasn’t participating in the conversation. I’m just really introverted and live in my head a lot. If I could just get the hang of finding some common interests and carrying conversations. Unfortunately, this made me think of Beth, because I could always talk to Beth about anything so easily.
One of my friends, April, is going through something, but I have no idea what. She generally acts depressed and glum. I try to ask what’s wrong, but she won’t tell me. I try to comfort her, and she just snaps at me. I think part of the problem, if not all the problem, is her parents. They’re just not very emotional, and April is. I just wish I knew how to make this better for her, but she won’t let me.
I’ve been thinking about coming out to some female friends, but I don’t know. I’ve read a fair few of stories about lesbians or bi girls coming out to their female friends, and their female friends acting weird. I don’t want them to assume I’m into them or checking them out or any such thing, but how do I deal with that if that happens?