After watching what Chase and Jake did I was equally disgusted and curious about what I had seen. It was really all I could think about sometimes, and it bothered me.
What troubled me even more was sneaking peeks at the magazine hidden under Chase's mattress, seeing the biggest penis I had ever seen deeply stuck in the other guy and the expression on his face. I couldn't decide if it was a look of pain or pleasure, but I know Chase and Jake seemed to like what was happening. As disgusted as I was it was something I needed to try.
A few weeks after that school was out for the summer, and the four of us were together all the time, and we got closer and my dad spent more and more time with Jake's mom, but I don't think we understood just how close they had become.
Eventually I tried the act on myself in the basement, with a candle I carefully shaped. It took a few tries to get over the pain before I felt the pleasure, and it had become a secret equally deep as what I had witnessed between Chase and Jake.
One day when Dalton was over we had some really bad weather and there were tornado watches in the area, and dad called and ordered me to get in the basement with Dalton. We live in a high risk tornado area, so we knew what could happen. Chase was at Jake's place and they stayed in a closet, the safest place in the trailer.
Dalton and I went in the basement and huddled next to each other on the couch down there while it got darker outside and the rain and hail intensified, and I'm not ashamed to say I was scared. After a while the power went out and we clung to each other, then I asked Dalton if he wanted to see something really bad? Naturally he said yes.
I grabbed the gay magazine from its hiding place and took it downstairs to Dalton, who was speechless. When he asked me where I got it I lied and told him from the trash at the town's news stand. There was no way I could tell him the truth.
We went page by page, laughing at the pictures and then Dalton asked me if I wanted to try it? I thought about it for a while then showed him the candle I'd been using, and he didn't say anything.
I won't be too descriptive because I know I can't, but having him as close as he could possibly be with me was one of the best things I have ever felt, and with my turn I was as gentle as I could be with him. By the time we had finished showering the power was back on, and I decided what I needed to do about Chase.
The next Monday was a rainy day and Chase and I were stuck at home watching tv. I went into his bedroom and grabbed the gay magazine and told him that we needed to talk about it.
Chase was furious and got up off the couch and came after me and I had to think quick before he kicked my ass. We ended up in his bedroom and his picked up his baseball bat and swung it behind his back, and I yelled out
CHASE! STOP IT DAMMIT! I LIKE BOYS TOO!
He dropped the bat and it clanged to the floor, and he sat down on the bed next to me. He was crying, and I put my arm around him and pulled him close.
I told him about how I had seen what he'd done with Jake, and I knew he liked it. Then I betrayed Dalton and told him about our time in the basement. Chase looked as me like I had just told him I was a alien from Mars.
Then I took a huge risk.
I leaned over and kissed him on his lips and he started crying, stopping only when he heard my dad pull into the driveway. When dad asked what was wrong I lied and told him he was thinking about his dad, and my dad gave us a big hug.
The next day my dad told me something that would change our family forever.