Thanks for the memories, even though they weren't so great.

Super Duck's picture

I definitely wish I had ended my speech with that, haha.

So, I graduated! Everything went surprisingly well. (The hat and I were absolutely not friends, though. It messed up my hair so much.) Giving the salutatory speech was beyond nervewracking, though. When I got onstage and looked out into the audience, for some reason, I thought this girl in the very back was FCG, so it freaked me out big time. I later discovered that the girl was not, in fact, FCG, but I couldn't tell that from the stage. (It was possible that she could've been there. She's apparently still friends with IG.) Despite my nerves, I actually gave the speech with minimal problems. I messed up once because I started reading the wrong line, but it was only a little mistake, so it wasn't that big a deal. And I didn't trip going up the steps or walking across the stage!

A lot of the other girls cried, but I didn't. I'm so glad to get out of there. I can't even begin to put the feeling into words. High school was, for the most part, a terrible experience. Freshman year was still the time of bullies, sophomore year was decent for a while but also kinda annoying and ended terribly, junior year was like being mauled by angry wolves and then kicked in the face twelve times and set on fire, and I was so over that whole awful place by senior year.

I hated every single thing about my high school except the fact that I got to go in an hour late my senior year. I hated the ugly uniforms, the abundance of rules that didn't even make any sense, the dingy old halls, the constant babying, the complete and utter lack of encouragement, everything. But... I'm free now! I never have to go back! Never ever! I really do feel like a weight has been lifted off my chest now that it's officially over.

One of my friends who moved away a couple years ago came to see us graduate, so it was nice to see him again. After graduation, all of the seniors got on a bus, and some parents took us on a trip for the night. We ate at this restaruant I'd never heard of before, and it was pretty good, though a bit slow. Then they took us to this giant convention center type thing and there was a party for us. Unfortunately, I ate too much sugar. WAY too much sugar. Everyone did. I had tons of energy for a while, but I felt awful by about 5 am. We got back at 7. Everyone felt so awful!

I slept until 4 pm. When I woke up, I ate some mac and cheese (the BEST breakfast) and drooled over Brittany Snow's lacy red underwear in John Tucker Must Die since I've been watching a lot of movies lately. Mmm... Me likey. What was I saying, again? Oh, right, I felt like the freakin' queen of the universe!

But, now I just feel like my same ol' useless self again. It was good to feel awesome for a little while, though!

Hmm... Nothing much has really happened. Today I saw one of my friends who graduated last year for the first time in a while, so that was nice.

Oh, speaking of friends, I made a friend, I think. So, there's that. Through my college's Facebook group for incoming freshmen, I met someone who lives just a few hours away from me, in a little town like mine, so she knows how it is here. It's nice to have someone truly understand. We're in two entirely different programs, so she probably won't be in any of my classes, but there's this one club we're both going to join, so we'll be seeing each other.

And speaking of college, I'm going to Orientation in June now instead of July! So, I'm pretty excited about that. It's on June 26, so I have about a month until then. I can't wait!

A lot of people are being negative, though, and that's really pissing me off. I was actually asked the question: "So, what are you gonna do when you get up there and don't like it?" (Not if, but when!) Umm, the only thing I have to compare it to is a shitty little town where I was scared and alone for years... Even if I'm not 100% in love with it, it will be the best place I've ever lived by FAR. And really, my demands aren't very much at all. I just want to live in a place that has public transit, those cute old-style buildings, girls who like girls, and a population of greater than 500,000.

(I don't know the proper name for those buildings, but they make me sooo happy! I always just call them "downtown buildings." The first example was from Boston, of course, but I also heavily associate them with New York. Can anyone tell me their proper name? The few we have around here are moldy and abandoned and terribly dilapidated, which takes all my happiness away... And if you think this is weird, then don't even ask me how I feel about brownstones.)

This summer is going to be the longest ever, though, ugh. I don't move to Boston until September 1. All my friends who are going to college in-state go to theirs in early August. Like, the one time I DON'T want a long summer, I get one that lasts 4 months!

So, yeah, that's my life these days.

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hellonwheels's picture

You don't want a long summer? Da Fuq, duck???

That is like the opposite of what every other college frosh coming in wants, specially in Boston. lol. \

Glad to hear you are making friends and out of that s-hole you call your hometown, though you may actually find yourself longing for it after some time away....but screw the a-holes and suggestive ppl saying you love it there.

Go off to college, join the GSA, get a gf, and be....super.

hell.

Mental wounds not healing, driving me insane, i'm goin' off the rails on a crazy train- the ozzman

Super Duck's picture

I don't want a long summer

I don't want a long summer because that means more time I have to be in Mississippi. :( And also the main person I hang out with here is going to be gone all summer starting in mid-June.

Well, I'm not so sure I'd ever long for a town so tiny and isolated that you have to drive almost 30 miles just to go grocery shopping! And I don't really have many particularly good memories here. The person who said the "hate it when you get there" thing just really hates Boston for some reason, though.

Speaking of girlfriends... There are TONS of hot girls in the Facebook group, like probably every 3rd girl who posts is ridiculously hot. I just don't know how many actually like girls!

hellonwheels's picture

Oh, I am sure...

You will find a few...there are always horny, drunken co-eds making bad (or good?) decisions in college, especially in their first few years. So many get that first time on my own kinda feeling, so they will do things and try things their parents would never allow...even if they are just doing it to attract the attention of straight guys, which sadly, happens too often.

but I wish you luck on your duck 'hunt' for some pussy! lol.

Mental wounds not healing, driving me insane, i'm goin' off the rails on a crazy train- the ozzman

Super Duck's picture

I just laughed so hard at

I just laughed so hard at the "duck hunt for pussy" thing oh my god. Thanks, I will definitely need all the luck I can get!

hellonwheels's picture

Lol....

I figured you might get a chuckle out of that...haha.

Also, if you're into gingers who are smart, I have a friend who recently came out as a lezzy who might be travelling boston way soon this summer. lol.

Mental wounds not healing, driving me insane, i'm goin' off the rails on a crazy train- the ozzman

Super Duck's picture

I did, it was hilarious!

Oh, is that so? Well... Is she hot? ;) Hahaha!

(I'm probably terrible for saying this, but my cousin's last girlfriend was a redhead, and she was pretty hot!)

If you're being serious, then I guess it would depend on like when and stuff. I'll probably be ultra busy during Orientation week, and then I won't be back until September.

hellonwheels's picture

nah....

That was sarcasm, though she is going to be travelling to boston soon-ish. But she could pull off like hot librarian/nerd w/ glasses look. lol.

Mental wounds not healing, driving me insane, i'm goin' off the rails on a crazy train- the ozzman

Bosemaster42's picture

Congratulations,

Duck! On your graduating. Love the analogy of your Junior year in High School, it pretty much sums up my own experience. I don't know what they call those buildings in New York, architecturally that is. I do know the Paramount Theatre was built in the 1930's and has that "roaring twenties' art deco style. The Boston Opera House was built in the late twenties and originally both were movie houses. I stepped into the Opera House last year, for the first time and saw 'Billy Elliot' there. I couldn't believe this place was just a movie theatre at one time. The interior is extremely ornate and opulent. There really isn't a bad seat in the theatre because of the way it was built(similar to an Amphitheatre). I believe the Opera House is of the Baroque style of architecture. Yeah, there's a ton of brick & stone buildings in Boston, as well as, the Brownstones that line several streets in the back bay area.

Super Duck's picture

Thanks! Yeah, that's the

Thanks! Yeah, that's the best way I can describe that year, definitely. I googled "art deco buildings" and it did bring up pictures of a lot of buildings I like, so maybe it's kind of like that? I also googled the inside of the Opera House, and WOW is all I can say!

Ann's picture

Woohoo!

Congrats on escaping! You've got at least 80 years of awesomeness to make up for this terrible experience.

Super Duck's picture

Thanks!! And yeah, I'm

Thanks!! And yeah, I'm definitely excited!

jeff's picture

Hmm...

Congrats!

I live in NYC on the Upper West Side in a pre-war brownstone, btw. ;-)

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"You don't know you're beautiful." - Harry Styles

Super Duck's picture

Thanks!

Wow, I'm jealous, haha! I've always wanted to live in a brownstone.

MacAvity's picture

Hey!

Congratulations! I know how long you've been wanting to get out of there! Now go have fantastic new adventures in Boston!

Super Duck's picture

Thanks!! I'm definitely

Thanks!! I'm definitely excited for my new adventures! :)