Uncertain's picture

I've decided I will try and write here more regularly again. I found that writing in the past has really helped me process my thoughts - as well as finding it particularly useful for 'remembering' what has happened in my life. Writing here will largely be for the purposes of documentation; comment if you wish - I was reading through my journals and I have found some advice rather useful.

A number of things have happened over the past few months. I guess just two things to update before I go to bed - it's almost 4.00am

Firstly, I have finally come out to my mother. She cried but she seems okay with it now. I had stopped waiting for the 'right' moment. She came to visit me for two weeks and I got into a fight with her. I had just broken up with my ex-boyfriend at that point, and I was in a terrible mood. I left the house to get some air with a few friends. We sat at the Starbucks just outside my house. It was there, in front of my friends, when I came out to my mother. I stayed over at my friend's for the night. He made me watch a movie to distract myself. I don't think I cried. I remember waking up and nothing really changed.

Secondly, I have a new boyfriend. He is a lovely boy. We had been seeing each other for about two months. We became official on Saturday. We first hooked up I think three months ago. We both did see a few other people in between (nothing serious) - but in actuality, we really liked each other, and was waiting for the other to ask the other out.

He is vegetarian, has a tongue piercing and I've never seen him stressed or sad. In contrast, I'm always stressed about something these days. He gives me back massages when that happens. It's nice, he makes me forget about all the shit going on in my life. He took me out to dinner the other day, we had plum wine, it was pretty sweet (he paid). We have nice conversations. I don't really think he's the one though.


elph's picture


to have you back. Hope all is going well at university. Still an active debater?

jeff's picture


Congrats on telling your mom. I'm sure she'll come around and accept it is one of the many things that make you you, and special.

Why isn't your boy the one? Seems like a good counterbalance.

"You don't know you're beautiful." - Harry Styles