I don't know who I am, where I am, or what I am doing.
I feel my heart growing progressively colder towards Edwin, something I never thought would happen in a million years. But he is just making me hate him. He is practically just pushing me away into another person's arms, where I find my solace all too often.
Sooner or later, he is going to lose me. I'd always been afraid of losing him... but now he has to worry. If he even cares...
On the other spectrum, this other guy is lighting up my life in so many other ways. He's so good, I'm afraid it is all too good to be true. But I haven't even had the time to build up any walls.
It's going to be a long October.