We decided as a group to co-write a journal discussing Oasis and what it means to us, and ways that maybe it can be made better? This took some effort on our part, and lots of sneaking around and texts to accomplish but we hope that as writers on here we can advance the one place where we can publicly be ourselves.
What Does Oasis Mean To Us?
[Noah] With all the crap going on in my family and the constant effort to get my Dad to even try to be involved with me, coming out isn't an option. To me being gay is just more shit to deal with, not something I feel proud about or even thing is a good thing. At least here I can write freely about it, unlike in the chat rooms full of freaks and weirdos that just want to cam and get pics of me. I know I'm safe here, and that's HUGE!
I've talked about gear in chat rooms and was told all about spanking, humiliation, being made into a human toilet, and becoming a slave. That's shit's just gross to me and has nothing at all to do with my gear interest! On here the comments made me feel okay about what I like, not wanting to throw up.
[Drew] I may look like a boy on the outside, but I still have girl parts and don't think it's safe for me to come out as F2M just yet, but having to hide it is also so very frustrating. My second family is tolerant of me, but the older I get the more obvious my physical differences become. Eighteen is a long way off for me, so I just have to take it day by day.
I have more to write on here I just have to ask everyone to be patient with me, well really us. Only Dante has unrestricted computer use, and even he has to be careful.
[Aaron] I haven't written about it yet, but my adoptive father knows enough about my past to suspect that I'm gay, he's talked to me about gay things just like he would talk about anything else, but never really asked me. I love him for that, and someday I'll tell him what I think he already knows. I just don't think I can ever tell him about what I did that made my ex-father sign away his parental rights to me, but maybe I can write about it here?
[Dante] We were thinking about another site to write on, but it felt too strict, almost like doing English homework. English is my least favorite class because it's made to be so boring, but here we can be ourselves. I have thick walls that surround me in real life, not because I want to but because I have to. It harder for us to get on here with all the schoolwork and stuff we have going on, but I come here everyday to see what's new.
How Can We Make Oasis Better?
[Noah] I found out about Oasis in a chat room when someone there told me I should check it out. Maybe if more chat room members were aware of this site they could spread the word?
[Drew] People just need to keep writing, and spend a bit more time posting comments. If I took a lot of time to write something and not one person could be bothered to make a reply, it would make me think hard about writing on here again.
[Aaron] Noah's got a good point here, there isn't much out there for middle school age kids except lots of pressure to come out, the last thing I want/need in my life right now! There's a lack of regular acting gay guys too for us to look up too, but tons of gay guys that act like girls. None of us act like that and we know if we come out we'll be expected to change. How about some support for us as well?
[Dante] I think the older members need to be supportive of the new ones, especially those with some tough issues. I read the journals the autistic kid wrote last year and he got dumped on by the people he needed the most to help him. WE look up to older gays, and WE NEED YOU!
Thanks for reading this,