Finally a senior

Mogul's picture

Here's a little resume of my boring life.

I could say summer was kinda good, but mostly boring; I didn't go out, mostly went to bed at 6am and my parents woke me up at 12 so I wouldn't "waste" my day. I had to visit my grandma, stayed with her for a week, my brother came and it was awesome, Christmas sucked, the only gifts I got were from my siblings, cousins got me drunk on New Year's Eve and it was nice (specially in the morning when I woke up without a hangover) and that was mostly all I did.

This Monday I started school again, I'm finally a senior and it's really awesome, I feel really confident and good with myself while I'm at school and I just can't give a fuck about what other people say about me now; I'm starting to socialize more with my classmates which I guess is a good thing, this year will be awesome and there's still a lot of stuff that I must do, specially with choosing career and I still don't know, but psychology got my attention. The whole school system got changed and now we have the American type of classroom that belongs to the teacher and not to the students, plus they made some electives that will mostly prepare us for the first semester of university.

I could say that my depression worsened in December, but now it hasn't been that strong, I could say that my happiness is coming back, but I'm starting to doubt it since I've been getting all symptoms of my usual mood sings. With my supposed epilepsy, it's still unknown, but I've been getting more seizures and each time is different, I've hallucinated, felt in real danger, felt something that's staring at me most of the time I have the seizure and a lot of emotions; one day it was so strong and I felt so worthless and depressive and suicide was starting to get into my head that I had to call my best friend and talked until it was over.

And Jeff, my best friend hasn't said anything about me calling him sexy when I was drunk.

Comments

jeff's picture

Hmm...

The teacher running the show and not the students is an American thing?! Seems the case in the UK too, no? Based on movies anyway...

You'll have more chances to tell your best friend he's sexy, I'm sure. ;-)

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"You don't know you're beautiful." - Harry Styles

Mogul's picture

Its really weird

But I'll get used to it.

I only have the balls to call him sexy or beautiful when I'm drunk

jeff's picture

Well...

Sort out a situation where you're drunk and he's not. ;-)

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"You don't know you're beautiful." - Harry Styles

anarchist's picture

I think it may be more productive

if it's the other way around.

elph's picture

I agree.

It would seem to be more conducive to the conversation Mogul would like to have...

jeff's picture

Well...

Not sure how ya'll have flipped "I can't only say this when I'm drunk" to him needing to be the one sober... I think the closeted gay one being sober and his straightish friend being drunk is more of a porn setup. ;-)

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"You don't know you're beautiful." - Harry Styles

anarchist's picture

That was the joke.

But elph seems to have taken it more seriously than intended.

jeff's picture

Well...

Once elph took it the wrong way, I put you both in the same category. ;-)

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"You don't know you're beautiful." - Harry Styles

elph's picture

Wrong?

To clarify my observation: I was of the opinion that Mogul might find it a bit easier to speak with his desired friend if he (i.e., Jeff) were mildly inebriated --- and, in a mood to be friendly --- when Mogul chose to speak with him about his attraction.

I fully understand Mogul's being tongue tied… but if Jeff is already in a "friendly mood"… it should be a easier for Mogul to open his heart to a potentially-receptive Jeff. And Mogul, being sober, would be the one in control and less likely to say something he might later regret.

It appeared to me that this assessment was consistent with that of anarchist's.

I merely stated that I concurred… but, as for my being "wrong" in expressing agreement with anarchist, just doesn't "compute." And I'm sorry that you were able to search for and discover an unintended ad hominem lurking within!

jeff's picture

Hmm...

Since I do not "search for and discover an unintended ad hominem lurking within!," I cannot reply to this, since time has proven I can never convince you of my intent, and have no interest in going down that rabbit hole again. Maybe anarchist can sort you out here, but I'm tapping out.

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"You don't know you're beautiful." - Harry Styles

anarchist's picture

It's easier to fuck people when they're drunk.

It was a joke.

Mogul's picture

I've been trying

To get drunk with him, but it's really hard to plan something. And just one of us drunk is really boring specially when he's the drunk one.

lonewolf678's picture

Glad to hear things have somewhat improved,

once your Senior year is overand you gradute, there's no going back! Make the most of this school year dude.