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DarkestValley's picture

So I haven't seen Jake in a whole month! We still speak on email and viber or whatever some days but still. I think we're still sort of together I guess until we see eachother and see how we feel. but space is good for now!! I went to Bali without him with my girlfriends and it was so good, I went out clubbing, and it was cool meeting other people to just know that Jake isn't the only one out there. I nearly cheated on him! With the hottest guy ever but I didnt. Which is weird because I had taken magic mushrooms and been drinking, and I didnt want to cheat on Jake, yet in the morning I wish I had. Ha so then the next night I went out and took mushrooms again and again didnt want to cheat. So weird you'd think that, when your under the influence your more likely to cheat not when your sober!!! Strangeeeeee

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Yamamoto's picture

Why are you even joking

Why are you even joking about cheating in the friggen first place? I mean I get that you where simply having fun and all. That is perfectly cool, but cheating is not. I mean seriously that is how deaises and shit are getting spread around, and frankly it is why I am so hesitant to even let another guy touch me anymore. I don't trust them because of reasons your explaining. I mean come on.. just because your a male doesn't mean you can't fucking keep it in your pants.

Oh and by the way if this Jake person is some crush of yours and not someone you are dating then it is not cheating. So you should have had yourself a good time and screwed this other person and then learned your lesson. Seriously though if you are not dating Jake then don't let some pretend cheating hold you back... and if you are dating them. Then fell guilty about having felt the need to cheat. Because if you don't, then you need to take a long hard look in the mirror and at your relationship. I mean I am sorry, but there is a reason you felt like doing what you are doing and before some jerk off comes on here and tells me that the reason is hormonal... WORNG... I have never felt that way once. It is called lack of self control, and you need to learn to take responsibility.

DarkestValley's picture

Jake is my now EX-boyfriend

Jake is my now EX-boyfriend of two years. Nah I dont have sex bro I am waiting till Im married so it would have only been a kiss, and I regreted not hooking up with someone else the next morning but after seeing Jake after a month I realized I did a good thing by not "cheating/not cheating", because I probably wouldn't have been able to look at him in the eye. But yeah all is good!

DarkestValley's picture

Also im a straight female!!

Also im a straight female!!

jeff's picture

Hmm...

If you don't see him for a whole month, go on vacation without him, and aren't sure if you're even still together, not sure how that would be cheating. Kind of sounds like you're single, no?

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Yamamoto's picture

I agree with Jeff... how can

I agree with Jeff... how can someone be your ex-boyfriend and anything you do be counted as cheated. I am sorry, but it sounds like you have some guilt issues along with problems of clinginess. I mean why does it fucking matter about looking him in the eye. He isn't your boyfriend anymore so there is no need to friggen fill guilty.

jeff's picture

Wow...

You allowed your fingers to type "I agree with Jeff"?! ;-)

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elph's picture

Such "gifts" should be...

...accepted graciously. :)

DarkestValley's picture

You are correct- He is not

You are correct- He is not my boyfriend and in that sense it definitely would not count as cheating. However, he is still a friend and he is still a person that I was intimately and still am emotionally connected with. The two years we were together we shared many memories, many up's and downs and I became apart of his family. So, to move on so quickly and find comfort in the arms of another when everything is so raw would be completely disrespectful not only to him but to everything our relationship stood for. So I would feel guilty, because it would be in every sense of the word wrong. So I am glad I didn't do anything and I wont for a long time because it just won't feel right.

Yamamoto's picture

Well then that is your loss

Well then that is your loss for letting silly emotions like that hold you back from finding happiness... I mean really it is super simple to cut those emotional ties if you actually try. The point is that you hanging on to them is what is making it hurt so badly and keeping them raw... Just friggen let go it and move on. Sorry it is not wrong... The idea of right and wrong on that subject is just a matter of your opinion. I mean there are things people on this site do all the time that doesn't hurt anyone, that I think is wrong. Simply a matter of opinion, doesn't mean that they are actually wrong in an objective sense of right and wrong. I am telling you that you would be much happier if you just moved on, but being a female I am sure you will think more with emotions than reason. That what my shrink told me that girls do... mostly built for emotional response... while guys it is something different...

I am trying to help you, but you obviously don't want it so I wish you the best of luck silly :P