anarchist's picture

Yakow has been spending a lot of time with his new girlfriend. I can only be alone with him at one time in the day now, and I have to skip one of my periods to do it. It's worth it, though, since that class is 100% online and I can make up all of it from home. Anyway, they've started kissing every time they leave each other, which would probably make me feel a lot more uncomfortable if she weren't so friendly and social with me (not like his last girlfriend, who never said a word in my presence). I still feel negatively about the situation, but it seems like Yak still has the same opinion of me that he's had through our friendship, so that's something. I can't really figure out why I'm not more bothered, or what these negative feelings are that I'm having. This is really hard to put into words. We should be doing that lake walk this weekend, since we've decided to do it Saturday and reschedule it to Sunday if something does somehow happen again. Our chances are doubled already.


jeff's picture


"I can't really figure out ... what these negative feelings are that I'm having."

YOU want to be kissing him?

"You don't know you're beautiful." - Harry Styles

anarchist's picture

Well yeah, that's true.

I don't know why I didn't think of jealousy, but it isn't an easy emotion to describe in this situation. At least they're short, small kisses, not actual fancy ones that most people at my school do. It's kind of weird that he has a girlfriend, but is also seems pretty mundane at the same time. It's like something that isn't really that weird, but creates a really weird impact with me, especially when our friendship seems so different from most ones. When he talks with me about kayaking, he starts acting so different from normally. He's even started going to 4chan because of me, which I find amusing. I'm getting way off topic, though.