Fadeout

anarchist's picture

Regardless of the distractions, my thoughts are still plagued with memories of Ky. I don't feel motivated to do anything and I wish I could just stay in bed all day, but I eventually get hungry and have to get up to eat. It would be nice if there were just one thing that had a point to it, because then there would be a reason to care about anything. I can tell that Yk is trying to ignore me, so the one thing I thought I had isn't even real, and he just seems like a douchebag now that I'm seeing him from a different perspective. Too bad this ended before I was ready. If only there were a way to fall asleep without having to deal with waking up.

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Beau's picture

I hate to say this

but YK is a total waste of your time. If he was interested he would show it. I know you have a crush on him, but cut your losses. Please!

You need to find a gay guy that's interested in you, and maybe chat rooms are the way to go? Maybe you can find someone that is local and not a serial rapist pervert who may be worth your.

If you keep this up your going to have a sucky ass summer@home alone w/your hand!!!!!!

Beau

anarchist's picture

I'm definitely not going on chatrooms or anything like that.

I don't want to go through more of this shit, so I'd rather avoid people from now on.

anarchist's picture

Oh, and he did show interest in seeing me over the summer.

But I don't know about that anymore, since we don't talk now.

jeff's picture

Well...

"my thoughts are still plagued with memories of Ky"

KY has given many a person a good memory....

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"You don't know you're beautiful." - Harry Styles

anarchist's picture

Wow.

That took me longer to understand than it should have.