I didn't really feel like writing about this at first, but it's a personal journal and it belongs to me, so why not? Nobody's going to find it unless they want to. even then they probably won't find it.
The walk was really nice, though. I got really muddy from jumping across streams and he didn't really get as muddy because he's familiar with the streams. He actually got tired a lot quicker than I did, even though he's a lot more active than I am. I'm more used to walks though, while he always does fast things like biking and running. Anyway, we both ran out of water very quickly and got very thirsty and hot by the end of the walk, which was almost ten miles long. We got some bugs on our backs through the trip, and ended up having to get them off each other the whole time.
Once we got back to his place it felt very good having cold liquids and food with which to make a grilled cheese sandwich. Then we looked at some music and hung out outside a bit. We sat on two chairs on his porch and talked about various things. He was dressed in thin shorts and was also sitting with his legs up, so his shorts sleeves were slid down, revealing a lot and making it very difficult for me not to look there for the half hour before I left, and then he went kayaking.
As previously mentioned, he's excited about teaching me to kayak this summer, and so am I. I hope it'll go better than when I tried to teach him guitar.
And today was a pretty good day. I ended up talking to a lot of people for some reason. It seems like I'm simultaneously becoming more social yet quieter and more avoidant at times. It's strange and I don't get how it's possible, but I've been told that I talk really quietly. That's weird because I used to be so loud all the time, and now I'm actually noticing how quiet I am and it explains why it's so hard to get and keep people's attention. At least I'm more likesable when I'm quiet.
School's been happening, too, as weird as that sounds based on the content of my journals. As much as I don't write about it, it is happening and it's pretty terrible. I hate sitting down in classes because I know I won't be allowed to move for 45 minutes and the seats hurt and make me sore all day because I have to sit in them for almost seven hours without a break unless I skip class, which I haven't been doing the often because of both the school security who know who I am by now and the caterpillars that get on me when I go in the woods to get away from the school security. Aside from that, I took the SAT recently and it was fucking easy. I didn't expect that test to be such a pushover. Everybody says it's hard and it fucking isn't. Oh, and I've been doing field testing for a new online testing service, which sucks because it traps me in a room for way more time than anyone needs to take those tests, and prohibits me from talking to any of the people I like taking to. It does take me away from two of my least favorite classes, and one pretty boring one, but it also makes me sit in a boring room for hours, so it's pointless. It sucks that I got picked for that. Aside from not skipping, I also need to start doing homework again, since I haven't really been doing any all quarter, and my GPA is becoming shit again, like last year.
I think it's below 2.5, so that's pretty bad. I think I'll try to find work on a farm when I'm out of school. Farm work probably doesn't require too much experience, and I get to be in a rural area with plants, so I'm happy. I know someone who is moving west to the mountains to grow fruits and vegetables, but I'm not a good gardener so I can't. If anybody wants to weigh in on this; please do. I'm actually pretty nervous of what will happen to me. I need to find a way to Central Asia at some point so I can truly be happy, on the plains in a tent with my horses and my traditional instruments and no civilization in sight.
I'm really glad I wrote this journal. I actually learned a bit about myself after that and I feel good about getting some of this stuff here for people to help.