In a previous journal I made the blunt announcement that apparently I'm ready to go look for a relationship. Whether I am right or wrong, it is only human nature to seek companionship beyond family and friends eventually. We recognize that we all have feelings eventually in our lives that can only be met by a romantic relationship.
It took me about a year to finally recognize that I have indeed been feeling a longing for romance. This was for a time confusing as to whether I was simply absorbing feelings I felt from reading romantic literature, or genuinely having these receptive feelings within my myself. I determined after the course of said year that I was ready.
The signs were difficult to recognize at first. In fact for a while I thought I might be coming down with something. I just felt lonely at first, totally normal, but something about it became noticeably different. I also began to notice sometimes it was strong or very light. It also made me more outgoing,adventurous, and taking slightly more risks.
Nothing harmful, but I did step out of my comfort zone many times in attempting to follow leads that might lead to meeting a variety or people with whom I could begin a selection. It sounds a bit too logical and then very illogical. At this point I've not made much progress as I've had far too many things going on.
The tl;dr version being, I'm doing crazy shit in the search for love. Not all of this may make sense, then again human nature doesn't make a whole hell of a lot of sense. I've realized that I still have a lot of things to do, and I need to start somewhere. If by some way I meet someone, I do. Should it not last, I can only move on and try again.