Signs Ignored Now Recongnized

lonewolf678's picture

In a previous journal I made the blunt announcement that apparently I'm ready to go look for a relationship. Whether I am right or wrong, it is only human nature to seek companionship beyond family and friends eventually. We recognize that we all have feelings eventually in our lives that can only be met by a romantic relationship.

It took me about a year to finally recognize that I have indeed been feeling a longing for romance. This was for a time confusing as to whether I was simply absorbing feelings I felt from reading romantic literature, or genuinely having these receptive feelings within my myself. I determined after the course of said year that I was ready.

The signs were difficult to recognize at first. In fact for a while I thought I might be coming down with something. I just felt lonely at first, totally normal, but something about it became noticeably different. I also began to notice sometimes it was strong or very light. It also made me more outgoing,adventurous, and taking slightly more risks.

Nothing harmful, but I did step out of my comfort zone many times in attempting to follow leads that might lead to meeting a variety or people with whom I could begin a selection. It sounds a bit too logical and then very illogical. At this point I've not made much progress as I've had far too many things going on.

The tl;dr version being, I'm doing crazy shit in the search for love. Not all of this may make sense, then again human nature doesn't make a whole hell of a lot of sense. I've realized that I still have a lot of things to do, and I need to start somewhere. If by some way I meet someone, I do. Should it not last, I can only move on and try again.

Comments

jeff's picture

Hmm...

Sounds like your comfort zone still needs to be tested/expanded a bit more... also, if you measure progress of anything you have yet to achieve in years, you're off to a bad start. ;-)

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"You don't know you're beautiful." - Harry Styles

lonewolf678's picture

Eh,

call it what you wish, but I'm going to get myself out there.

jeff's picture

Well...

If it took you a year to recognize what is a pretty much a human default setting, I do hope you act quicker to resolve this need. Like, assess where you are in this pursuit in 3 months as opposed to May 2015...

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"You don't know you're beautiful." - Harry Styles

lonewolf678's picture

Sure as hell'll try,

I've got a lot of stuff I need to do though, continue course work, research, getting certifications and other things. Balancing a relationship may or may not work out, but I'll never know if I don't try.