the reason I feel like shit

anarchist's picture

Driving classes started today, so I'll have to start going to a room filled with terrible people to sit for three hours without being allowed to do anything. Those fucking annoying normal people make me feel uncomfortable and it sucks having to look at their douchey faces. At least there are two good people who I know, so that's nice. It gives me a reason to walk outside, too.

Anyway, the reason I feel like shit is because I'm still being fucking ignored by yk, and I don't know how I can get anything out of him. Nobody would be friends with someone, have a great time with them, tell them to text, and then ignore them out of nowhere with no explanation. I just don't get it. This doesn't make any sense, and I can't stop thinking about it. I have nothing else to do, my family is barely around right now, so I have to just sit in my room and think about how lonely I am. I wish I knew how to feel better.

And it seems like he's broken up with his girlfriend or something like that, based on a few tweets she posted over the last couple of days. And that just makes me feel worse, because I really want to know what's going on. Is he just ending his relationships with everyone?

Fuck, this is weird. I wish people weren't so complicated.


anarchist's picture

I talked to his girlfriend a bit just now.

She said that he's been acting weird and he got defensive when she asked him what's up. So I'm kind of worried.

elph's picture


She called you?

Specifically, what worries you?

anarchist's picture


I asked her what he's up to via Twitter (since it's the only communication I have with her), and she told me this. I asked her to let him know that I want him to reply, since he's been responding a bit more to her, and she said she would. This is all the news I have so far.

What worries me is that he's been quiet with his girlfriend, too, and this is unusual, and it seems like something personal is happening that he can't talk to anyone about. That's pretty worrying because I have no idea what it is. And it's even more worrying that he was completely fine last time I saw him, and then this is happening out of nowhere without an explanation.

elph's picture

How about...

writing something like this:

"I have a hunch that something is troubling you. I hope you know that we're here for each other..."

anarchist's picture

It's useless.

He hasn't paid attention to anything I've sent, and if his girlfriend can't get his attention for me, then nothing can. If all else fails, I may need to go to his house and ask him in person.

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I just sent him something similar to that, but I doubt he'll reply, since nothing else has gotten his attention so far (and I've tried quite a lot).

elph's picture

Nearly 5 days of silence... :(

Should I be worried?

anarchist's picture

I don't know.

I haven't been sending him much lately, but I did email him something irrelevant just now. I don't know why he would ignore everything like that, but I think I'm starting to find ways of ignoring it. I'm trying to return to the solitary mindset I had last year, and Aphex Twin seems to help that. Still, I get sad every day thinking about this, so I'm far from getting over it.

lonewolf678's picture

Very odd,

when someone isolates themselves like that, something's amiss. If you're really worried I advise you try to get in contact with his parents. They might be able to give you some information, after all you are his friend.

anarchist's picture

I don't know how to do that.

I know his father's account on a whitewater forum they both go to, but he hasn't been on there in a while. I don't know any other way to get in touch with them. I don't want to seem to obsessive, anyway. I'll probably see him later this year when school's back in, so I'll settle it then. And just be depressed all summer.

Unless you can think of anything else to do. I feel like I've tried everything, but I'd appreciate your help.

lonewolf678's picture

I mean,

just go to his house and ask if he's there. I'm sure someone will open the door. I wouldn't think it obsessive since you're genuinely concerned about his wellbeing.

anarchist's picture

I've wanted to do that for a while.

I've been thinking about asking one of my parents or my sister to bring me to his place, but they're all somewhat misanthropic and distrustful of people, and don't really understand attachment to friends, so I think it would be hard to convince them, and I'm kind of scared of them just insulting him and calling him a terrible person like they usually do with people they haven't met. I come from a family of loners, so I already have a disadvantage.

I just saw Yk send his girlfriend a tweet, though, and that's the first thing I've read from him in weeks, but he's still ignoring me, so I feel even worse now. Maybe it is time to go to his house and ask.