Catharsis (lots of triggers if you don't like rape or violence or some shit don't read it)

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I'm fucking angry. I'm fucking angry at the shit that this fucking world has decided to put me through. I'm fucking angry that I have to listen to this fucking screaming all my fucking life and it hurts and it sucks and I need it to stop but the more stressed I get the louder they are and it's not exactly like they calm my nerves is it? I'm fucking angry that some fucker decided to rape me and not just once no somebody had to do it again years later and you know what fuck you, fuck you, fuck you! I HATE YOU! I fucking hate you, this pain is your fucking fault and I fucking hate you, i want to fucking kill you, I want to drive nails into your eyes and crucify you upside down and waterboard you because I FUCKING HATE YOU YOU DID THIS TO ME THIS IS YOUR FAULT ARE YOU HAPPY? ARE YOU FUCKING HAPPY? IS THIS WHAT YOU FUCKING WANTED, OR DID YOU NEVER THINK BEYOND THAT NINE YEAR-OLD BOY YOU WANTED TO CUM INSIDE OF? Is this what you wanted? I hate you. I hate you and I hate your kind and I want to hurt you and I want to kill you and I want to kill everyone like you and bathe in your blood and let your bodies rot in the middle of times square where it is loud and the noise will never stop and you will be trampled on until there's nothing left of you but FUCKING DUST. I HATE YOU SO FUCKING MUCH AND I HOPE YOU DIE ALONE AND AFRAID, LIKE I'VE BEEN FOR SO FUCKING LONG i still have nightmares about those nights you fuckers I hate you I remember the pain and the fear and I want to FUCKING KILL YOU and everyone like you and I want to watch you burn and I want to watch you die over and over again because you're a fucking piece of fucking shit. I'm angry at the people who keep talking like I had to have done something wrong why didn't I fight why didn't my friend fight why didn't we do something FUCK YOU YOU FUCKERS YOU PEOPLE WHO ASK THAT SHIT DON'T KNOW ANYTHING there was nothing i could do and i was so afraid and so angry and I want to make the people who hurt kids like i was so afraid I want to make them hurt i want to flay them alive and make them eat their own skin as i cut inch after inch after inch off of them and i want to cut off their balls and make them watch as i bite their fucking cocks off my teeth are sharp enough you know and i would do it i am so fucking angry I HATE YOU and I want to hurt you so you know what it's like I want you to know what it's like because then maybe the screaming will finally stop i thought it would get better but the nightmares made them worse why did they have to come back make them GO THE FUCK AWAY I HATE YOU die die die all of you die i hate you i hate you I wanna make you bleed i wanna make you scream for mercy like i did but no i won't give it to you i won't i'll make you suffer i'll make you wish it was just a cock up your ass and i won't kill you i'll just let you die on your own in pain and in a pool of your own tears. i hate you. so much. and I don't even know WHO THE FUCK YOU ARE but I fucking hate you I want to know i need to know I will find out and then you'll hurt like you hurt me

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Well

That was cathartic.

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And as I stand here, strange and fearful,
beholding heaven at the peak,
I know that to complete my journey
still stranger pastures must I seek.