I cant remember how I figured out I was lesbian, I do all my major thinking at night so I think I was half asleep at the time. Both my parents are either psychologists or social workers so they're super cool about it and my only other sibling took it really well, and I don't really have a religion. But my family are the only people that know. Right now, its hard to be lesbian. I'm twelve, you may think that is way to young to know if I'm lesbian but I just know, you know? I've always been mentally more mature than most people in my grade. My school and town is very small, insensitive, and slightly homophobic. Luckily I'm switching schools. Lately I have been sort of depressed. (shows how bad my school is) I have a huge crush on my best friend's second best friend. So I am around her, LIKE ALL THE TIME. She's also going to a new school this year, and I think about her all the time. It's not like I can tell her " Hey I like you a lot we should go out some time." 1) We are way to young to date 2) What if she isn't lesbian? 3) She might have a crush on this other person who is male. He might be gay though, or he might have a crush on my best friend or ( gag) me. So my last problem is this: the previously mentioned best friend doesn't know I'm lesbian. I want to tell her but if I do there could be some serious problems such as trust issues; my two other so called "best friends" stabbed me in the back this year, what if she does the same? Again we are in middle school friend ships are changing, what if she stopes being my friend and tells the whole school? She is catholic so what if she thinks my entire being is a sin? I know she has some lesbian aunts that she loves but what if I'm different? What if she thinks I have a crush on her, which is like having a crush on my sister (gross)
Well, thanks for reading! I hope to get some comments I could use all the help I can get. I have some advice for those of you who don't want to be gay, lesbian, transgender, bisexual, or just other: you are beautiful. Even if it doesn't seem like it now there are people out there who love you. You can bend the religion that says other wise a little. You deserve to be happy and healthy and you deserve the very best. I think of it this way, If god does exist why would he make his creations imperfect? Technically we are just another form of perfection. We only live once according, to some people. Why waste it being unhappy with our selves?