May 2000

Hi there! This is actually my second Oasis column but the first one was stored on my previous laptop that was destroyed. So I've decided to take another crack at a debut column.

My name is Eric and I recently turned 20 years old, but I feel like I've turned 30. What that means is that lately I've become acutely aware of the passage of time. Only two years ago, I felt like I had my whole life ahead of me and that there was nothing I could not do. Then I had a bad experience that caused me fall into a deep depression from which I guess I haven't fully recovered. I guess the real problem is that I am a bit lonely.

I had my first sexual experience a short time ago and I thought it was really nice. It wasn't fully what I expected but it was still nice. I was really nervous and kept worrying whether I was doing it right but the guy I was with was very nice. I haven't seen him since which makes me a bit sad. I keep wondering what I'd say if I did see him.

I've just about finished my first year at university which I gotta say wasn't entirely what I expected. I don't know, maybe it's just my circle of friends or maybe it's just me. People often say I'm too quiet and perhaps I do need to be less introverted. Anyway I'll get a chance to develop my people skills in a totally new environment because I'll be doing some research at a university in the US (I live in the UK). I'm really excited since I've always wanted to take a trip across the pond, perhaps even make a permanent move after I graduate, but the pessimistic part of me is still waiting for the other shoe to drop. Maybe this is the sort of thing I need, to go into situations I've never been in and see what happens.

Anyway, I better get back to exam preparation (I can't believe how many books I've amassed this year!).

I hope you liked my first column. I’ll try another one soon. Feel free to email me at eeoam@yahoo.com.


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