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Three Poems by Josephine

By Josephine, EmbezzledEmotion@aol.com

Only Your Daughter

I am alone in this world
And no one understands
I am walking through fire
That you can't comprehend
I am my own person
And you don't know me anymore
We were never friends
Because you lied
And I discovered my distrust
I love you but I feel you will lie
I walk on water in my mind
But I am a hypocrite
I lie to you everyday
And you don't know
I am the child you could trust
But I am no longer
I walk alone through crowded halls
And stare with discontent in my eyes
I am any one
Except the child you can trust to let you in
I sleep in hell, breathing in flames
And feel nothing but shame
I live through a glass wall of pain
I touch no one
And feel insane
Insignificant and unworthy
But it doesn't help me to trust you
I'm only your daughter
We can't be friends
I can't trust
You won't let me

Raised by Dreamers

Raised by dreamers
Waiters
Haters
Children grow lazy
Cold
Confused
Growing up poor
Sick
Neglected
Children learn hatred
Confusion
Neglect

Who's the best
Worst
Lost
Children who love
Care
Please
Children who hate
Wait
Stay
Children who cry
Hurt
Stay

I'm the best
Loving
Leaving
He's the worst
Hating
Waiting
She is lost
Crying
Scared

My father dreamed
Waited
Stayed
Like my brother will

My mother dreamed
Cried
Stayed
Like my sister will

Where am I
Leaving
Losing
Alone, always like myself

Like When I was Five

All those times you could have come to me
You went to him
Down the hall and through his door
You looked past my tears
And ran to his bed side
To comfort him
Your baby
Your boy
The one who could never do wrong

While he sat in your arms
You forgot my tears
My dreams
My life
Your youngest
Your daughter
The one who still hasn't done right
The little bitch
You know I am
In your eyes
You knew there was something different
Back then too
We all knew
You still deny it
You still run
We all run

But I don't cry out for you anymore
I cry to myself
And when you walk to my door
Tap lightly
And ask what's wrong
I shake my head lightly,
And scream for you to leave me alone
You didn't care before
You only act now
So go
Run to his bed side
Like when I was five
Like what comes natural


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