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Lee

February 2001

Leanna's Story

This is the month of love, so I am going to tell you a story about strength, love and true courage to be all that you want to be. This is a story about one of my best friends in the whole world. Her name is Leanna. (Name changed for privacy) Leanna is a Male to Female transsexual. I have not known her that long, but in this time we have become very close. She is very understanding when I ask her questions about herself, questions that I am not sure if they are going to come out sounding wrong or not...She just answers them for me...with a very understanding and loving heart.

Here is Leanna's story.

Leanna was born July 3 1977 in Beaumont, Texas. She was born into the world as a boy...As long as she can remember she has always felt comfortable doing "girl things." Such as letting her sister dress her up in girls clothes so that she would have a playmate, and playing with Barbies never bothered her. To her it was normal and there was nothing wrong with it.

School was never easy for Leanna...No, I don't necessarily mean academically, but as far as the students were concerned she was not like them. In their eyes she was not worth getting to know. Leanna tried to play the "male role" when she was younger, the kids at school just new that she was different from them. They did not understand her. As we all know it is human nature to mock what you don't understand. The children would call Leanna names like "Sissy," "Faggot," and many others. All because she did not play with the other boys...Instead Leanna played with the girls.

When Leanna's father was not at home she was allowed to dress in girls clothes as long as she stayed in the house.

When she was 13, her father passed away when he crashed his airplane leaving their home in Breckenridge Colorado. Losing her father would forever change her life. At this time her mother decided that Leanna had suffered enough. Her mother who was a psychiatrist took Leanna to a psychiatrist that specialized in Gender Dysphoria to see if she can seek what she seemed to be searching for.

That summer Leanna had her first sexual experience, after her freshman year in High School. During the summer Leanna would sneak over to the neighbors house when she knew they would be gone, and sunbathe next to their pool. Leanna's sister had secretly given her a string bikini for her birthday that year and this and the lack of tan lines on her breasts made her feel more and more a woman.

What Leanna was not counting on was falling in love with a boy from the other side of town. A boy who for the summer was working cleaning pools in his father's pool business. That first time when she met James (Name changed for privacy) she was so scared, her heart was racing. She was not supposed to be dressed as a girl outside let alone she was not supposed to be at the neighbor's house when they were not home. James just simply unlocked the gate and said "Good afternoon M'aam" and tipped his hat and kept working. James talked to her the whole time he cleaned the pool. When James was done for the day he walked Leanna out the gate and stopped and gave her a kiss and a hug...I am not talking just any ol' kiss on the cheek or anything...I am talking the kind of French Kiss that makes your head spin and you float away you become part of each other and lose yourself. You simply see Fireworks.

On the last Wednesday of summer vacation she dressed in her best Guess jeans and a button up shirt that was tied in the middle. She walked over to James, and he dropped all his stuff. He gave her a hug and a kiss. Well and to keep the story in the "G" rating I will let you figure out what happened next. Before James was going to leave he told Leanna that he loved her. Leanna just looked at him and said "You can't love me" and she started to cry. James asked her "if it was because she had boy parts?" Then James told her that from the first time he met her he knew her secret, as her little string bikini did not hide much. Now Leanna was in love too.

After a few years and a few more doctors, Leanna was diagnosed at the age of 16 that she was transsexual with a desire for sexual reassignment.

With a signature from her mother, she started hormone replacement therapy. By the time she was 17 she had the cutest little A cup breasts. Things were going well for Leanna. The only thing that would bother her at all was when she would get her hormone replacement shots it would make her sick for a few days...Other than that all was going wonderful.

Leanna's junior year in High school was not as easy. She started to dress as a girl all the time. She also had her name legally changed ...It was changed on everything from her driver's license to her court documents. As before when she was younger the kids did not understand her. They would avoid her and yell obscenities at her. It hurt Leanna to not have friends, and even more than that, her own sister who had become popular because their mother was a doctor would avoid her too.

James had been the one thing that may have saved Leanna's life. If James would not have been there, she tells me that she probably would have killed herself at that time in her life. Leanna even went to James' senior prom with him. Including Cameras, Corsages, and a Limo. James was her first love.

Leanna got a full academic scholarship to several collages, but she decided to go to Florida State University. While James went into the US Air Force. Of all places he got stationed 30 minutes away from her in Eglin Air Force Base in FT Walton Beach, Florida.

They did not get back together for 10 months, and when they did he told her of the military's intolerance for homosexuality. He told her with sadness in his heart and tears in his eyes "I will love you even when the last breath escapes my body." That phrase still rings in Leanna's ears to this day. A year later he was married and his daughter and her share the same name.

Leanna graduated with top honors Phi Beta Kappa in three years. Her graduation presents from her mother were a Corvette, Breast Augmentation surgery and some facial plastic surgery.

She moved back to Texas and started attending University of Texas Medical Branch at Galveston. She was supposed to be an M.D. but she decided to break the mold and become a Doctor of Dental Surgery. She would like to have her own practice someday where she will specialize in Pediatric Surgery.

Love was truly in the air in December. Over Christmas the love of her life asked her to marry him. Leanna and Michael (Name changed for privacy) will be married September of 2001. Michael's view on Leanna is, he does not care what her body does or does not have on it. As long as she stays the same person he fell in love with...Nothing can change his love for her.

The day is almost here when Leanna will have her Sexual Reassignment Surgery. Leanna says "...It almost seems to be a small matter now, not nearly the mountain I faced showing up for school in a denim skirt for my junior year of High School."

May 16, 2001 at 7:30 am Leanna will have her final surgery. Now the two roads of her life can become one. One to fallow her dreams and desires...

Leanna wants to thank a few people in her life at this time.

"I want to thank my sister for being a girlfriend when no one understood me, to my father for looking the other way when I know in his heart a football player is what he wanted...Thank you to my mother for her always caring and understanding love, her shoulder to cry on her wisdom to lean on and her unwavering financial support.

Lastly, I want to thank James and Michael. James for showing me what true love was at such a young age, and to Michael my fiancée' for giving me the chance to live in true love for the rest of my life."

That was Leanna's story. I hope that we can learn to love and not judge people by their outward appearance but by what they are inside.

Quotes

Here are some more quotes for all of you. I think I will add this section to my article every month.

When just being together is more important than what you do you are with a friend. -Author Unknown

If nature made you a giver, your hands are born open, and so is your heart; and though there may be times when your hands are empty, your heart is always full, and you can give things out of that, warm things, kind things, sweet things help and comfort and laughter-and sometimes gay, kind laughter is the best help of all. -Author Unknown

If any of you have any questions or comments you are welcome to write to me at Pink-Panthers-Girl@excite.com

Live life to the fullest

Lee


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