Imagine that, it's April already! How cool is that? That only means just a little over a month until yours truly graduates. I trust that those seniors out there haven't been afflicted with "Senioritis," a very serious mental ailment that affects roughly 90% of high school seniors every year. I've been dealing with it on and off now, but I think I'm getting better control over it--we'll just see what happens in the upcoming weeks.
I Could Hardly Believe It
What could I hardly believe, you may ask? Let me tell you the wonderful story. I was reading our local paper during a break at work earlier last month, and it had occurred to me that perhaps I should still try and catch that movie, "Finding Forrester" (I think that's what it's called and how it's spelt). Anyhow, I turned to the local section of the newspaper to find if it was still playing at our theater. Looking down the list of movies I saw, "Chocolat," "Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon," "The Mexican," "Hannibal," "Billy Elliot..."
"What the hell?!" I proceeded to exclaim to myself. I remember that the movie was in the theater in December and January as well, and I saw it twice. As you may or may not remember, I absolutely loved the movie, and it made me cry every time I saw it. Well, much to my delight, for some reason unknown to me, it actually came back to town and I got the opportunity to see it two more times making for a grand total of four.
Like I've always maintained, "Billy Elliot" isn't a gay film. It does deal with some gay themes, but that's not the point of the movie. It also deals with artsy stuff (ballet to be exact), and since I'm an artsy kind of person, I'd naturally go for that kind of thing. Since it so nicely brings those two things (gay and artsy stuff) together in such a touching yet NOT overbearing way, it has to be my favorite movie. Unfortunately, it wasn't nominated for an Oscar in the Best Picture category. There's Hollywood for ya. But it did get a nomination for Best Supporting Actress (Julie Walters) and a few others as well (Best Director and Best Original Screenplay, if my memory serves me well--which it probably doesn't). It comes out April 17th, so check your local video stores or hell, just buy the damn thing! It's well worth the money.
Who Is It Now?
Yes, it's time to let you in on Mike's latest love interests. Before I start this off, I just want to say that I have absolutely no idea what I write the month's before, so I may have already mentioned these people already in passing. My profoundest apologies.
The first one, we'll refer to him as "B." B is a fellow musician and even plays the same instrument as I. And he's good, considering how old he is. Unfortunately, he's a little too young to do anything about it. It's still nice to flirt with him though, and sometimes I don't know...I could almost swear that he flirts back. But age is the main thing or else I might pursue this a little more. It's not because I don't think he's a great guy or anything, but it's because I would be way too scared of the legalities. In adults, a four year age difference might not seem so much, but in teenagers, it's like night and day. Perhaps when he gets a little older (and I can get a better reading on him with respect to his "gayness") and if I haven't moved on (which I hope will not be the case), I'll see what happens, but as of right now, this is just a nice friendship that we have, and I plan to keep it that way; for EVERYBODY'S sake.
The next one comes from the world of "He's-As-Straight-As-They-Come-But-Damn-He's-Hot-And-A-Total-Sweetheart...Dammit-Why-ME" category. "J." from work (I think I may have mentioned him last month) is one of those guys that you would automatically, upon seeing him, dismiss him as a dumb jock, but that's far from true in this case. J. is a very thoughtful, compassionate young man who has no problem with who I am, and he's a really fun guy to be around. I'm sure by now he knows I have the hots for him, but he doesn't care which is totally awesome (and it sucks, too, because I have to make sure I don't step TOO far out of bounds, if you know what I mean). We're always talking about something at work, giving counsel to each other--just like two friends should. About once a week, TOTALLY out of the blue, during a conversation, he'll say this obscenely sweet thing that just melts my heart--and every week it's something different. It always catches me by surprise and it's ALWAYS sincere; not just a line of crap he's feeding to me. What a great friend I have him him! Here's to a lifetime of good times!
Finally, we have "R." R. is one of those guys I'm never too sure about. For one thing, he's fun to be around (in a different way than "J." however.) He's a smart kid, reminds me a lot of me when I was about a freshmen (before I started disliking school). He's VERY musical (I said this before, but a guy with GOOD relative pitch [perfect pitch is even better] totally does it for me). The only interesting thing about him is that he treats me differently than most--if not all--of his friends, and always has, ever since I can remember. We've known each other for about four or so years, now. I think he's always treated me with a bit more gentleness than he would a normal friend, even before I came out to him. He maintains that he's straight (and I'll accept that until he tells me otherwise), but if it were ME, I'd maintain an entirely different story. Something promising though--I have some lesbian friends who have singled him out as being gay in one of our conversations with me, which totally excited me, because they have awesome Gaydar. Hahaha!
As Of Now
As of now, I'm on Spring Break. Well, rather, by the time you read this, I won't be. Who knows what I'll do? I'm going to be teaching lessons to B. as much as I can, doing LOTS of homework, cleaning out my car, and just doing whatever needs to be done. I'll be checkin' out the guys that come by work, as well. Pretty much anything to keep me out of *too much* trouble.
Oh yeah, and for sure I'll be practicing. I've got so many things I SHOULD be practicing but am not, so I had better start now while I have the time. There's bunches of scales to learn, chords to work through, and countless pieces of music to commit to memory. If a musician has nothing to practice, then they're perfect. And we all know that's never going to be the case--there's ALWAYS something to practice.
Well, this article is a tad bit past the deadline so I've got to rush and send it off before Jeff gets too mad. Who knows what I'll be writing about next month, but like yourself, I hope it's a bit more interesting and engaging than this article. But if I did happen to catch your interest on something, please E-Mail me. It's always fun chatting with people and hearing what they have to say about things.
Mike is an 18 year old, semi-closeted individual living with his mom and stepdad. He is interested in music, computers, music, reading, music, writing, writing music, listening to music, composing music, arranging music, and other music related things. Mike enjoys feedback and would like to hear from you, and can be reached via ICQ: #56413145 or by E-Mail: Mike_17@gay.com