June 2001

"Jeanine was the key."

I've become engrossed by the Internet. Much of my time and thoughts of late revolve around a silly internet game that is at the core nothing but promotion for the new Steven Spielberg movie "A.I." It's these eight little words that have me all crazed:

"Evan Chan was murdered.

Jeanine was the key."

These puzzles seem to stretch the boundary of logic and knowledge. The mystery itself is strung together through upwards of 50 different websites, all containing clues and hints to the overall mystery, but at the same time providing individual riddles that rack my mind. I joined this Cloudmakers group, a chat/discussion group that operates out of Yahoo. The 1600+ members all share knowledge and logic and reasoning to help solve the puzzles and riddles that pop up.

This community of intelligent people works for so many reasons. First, the community shares knowledge freely, so that people who know nothing about math (like me) can still get help solving the puzzles that specialize in math. And people who excel at logic help others. The same goes for those who know a lot about computers. And literature. And history. And business. And on and on it goes.

And there's nothing gay about it.

I mean that in a good way. For one of the first times in months, my life had some interactions that don't revolve around me being gay. Even my boyfriend and I have intellectual conversations about this, where homosexuality doesn't even come into it. That's very kewl. I don't know any of these people online either. None of us are there looking for a hook-up. I guess I had forgotten that the internet had other uses besides porno and pick-ups.

I must confess something else. I ordered a t-shirt. An Evan Chan tee. The back of it has the coroner's autopsy photo from the web. It looks really cool. I can't wait to get it. (Hopefully, by the time this is posted, I'll have it...) It's white. My boyfriend ordered a gray tee, one for the Anti-Robot Militia (ARM). He ordered it because it looks cool, and not for any political reasoning. One of the reasons I like them so much is that there is no direct correlation to the film, so that people who don't play the game may not understand. I'm such a geek sometimes.

I see the pictures from the film in all the magazines. I watch and re-watch the two movie trailers over and over again. The music itself is so haunting... (John Williams composing again, but who'd ya expect?) And that tag line: "His love is real. But he is not." Makes you want to cry, but then his fingerprint turns into circuitry and I find myself in awe and amazement.

And there's nothing gay about it. (so far).

Sure I think Jude Law is a stud, but he's not the reason I'm so psyched. In fact, he doesn't even figure into the internet game as of yet. And then Steven Spielberg goes and quits the Boy Scout Council because he doesn't agree with their discrimination against gays. God, I love that man.

And still I play on and on. Eager for the truth. Curious to see where this strange tale will take me next. It gives me inspiration, something to dream about besides comic books and the next Star Wars.

I may have said this before, but I like the game because it helps me see that there is more to my life than being gay. I'm not ashamed of being gay, but every now and then I need a breather from the culture, the community, the way of life. This riddle of a game helps me do just that.

"She will lead you to Evan, just as she led them..."

Later, campers....Elliot, 23, eagerly awaits the appearance of A.I. at the local cinema in Boca Raton, FL No, he didn't kill Evan Chan, but he's pretty sure Agent Cooper could figure out who did. As always, Elliot can be reached via email at kalelliot@hotmail.com or at his website http://elliotlane.editthispage.com

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