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Lead Me Home

by Beverly Greene

A whole new world
awaits me now.
I never knew
I'd have to learn
all over again
how to be me.
But did me
really change?
I'm still me,
only different.
Who's world
do I belong in
now?

Can't I have
both worlds?
I need
the people
I find
in both
but
I still feel
locked out
of both gray spheres
and trapped
on the black road
which connects
the two
floating balls.
I'm all alone
on this road
of mine,
a sign
has my name
on it.
I guess
this is my life.

Light pours
around
from behind
both worlds
making it
hard for me
to see what's
ahead or
what's behind.
I've spent
so long
here,
between
that I've
forgotten
which one
I was
headed for.

Where exactly
am I
trying to
get to?
I can
only see
the road
beneath
my feet.
The light
of the expectations
blinds me
and prevents
me from
looking
anywhere
but down.
I want
to look
ahead,
behind,
up,
but it hurts!
Too bad
no one
sells sunglasses
here on
the highway
of my life.

I wish
I had
a guide
or at least
a map
to help
me
find my way.
A post card
reminder
would be useful
to help
me remember
where the hell
I'm trying
to go.

Does it
even matter
anymore?
I'm here,
now,
that I know.
Even though
I can't
see the
future
or the
past
or even
remember
which is
which,
I know
where
I'm at
right now
so I'll
just trust
my heart
to guide
me home.


Beverly Greene, 20, is from British Columbia, Canada. She can be reached online at: poetica@Unix.infoserve.net.
General information: Jeff Walsh
Design and HTML: Jase Pittman-Wells
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